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I'm not Quiting, I'm Putting it Down; My Own Thoughts
Topic Started: Feb 12 2018, 12:01 PM (192 Views)
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So Today is going on my 5th day I have put down dipping. Not any easier than day 3 or 4. I was able to drink alcohol this weekend without dipping. I believe alcohol is one of my triggers that spark an internal debate in my head about why I should be dipping at that moment. I gained 5 pounds already. I can't stop putting gum, candy and food in my mouth. My wife told me that if gaining 10 pounds is a side effect, then you can live with that. "take one step at a time and focus on stopping" , then, "you can focus on your weight gain. I have found that cinnamon gum works the best to sooth the craving for a little while. Anyway, on day 5 and telling everyone I see about it. I just told a co-worker that I'm stopping because I'm 40. Told him that anything after that you are just going against the odds that something will happen to you related to tobacco use. High blood pressure, stoke, cancer, all that stuff. Just ate a half a roll of Mentos* while typing this. OK... back to work.
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Feb 12 2018, 12:01 PM
So Today is going on my 5th day I have put down dipping. Not any easier than day 3 or 4. I was able to drink alcohol this weekend without dipping. I believe alcohol is one of my triggers that spark an internal debate in my head about why I should be dipping at that moment. I gained 5 pounds already. I can't stop putting gum, candy and food in my mouth. My wife told me that if gaining 10 pounds is a side effect, then you can live with that. "take one step at a time and focus on stopping" , then, "you can focus on your weight gain. I have found that cinnamon gum works the best to sooth the craving for a little while. Anyway, on day 5 and telling everyone I see about it. I just told a co-worker that I'm stopping because I'm 40. Told him that anything after that you are just going against the odds that something will happen to you related to tobacco use. High blood pressure, stoke, cancer, all that stuff. Just ate a half a roll of Mentos* while typing this. OK... back to work.
Glad you have been nic free for 5 days, congrats!

However, we quit here. Nothing more, nothing less. Quit one day at a time, every fucking day. If you want some brotherhood and accountability from others who are going through the same things as you are, then join your May group. Make your promise not to use nicotine for the day and keep that promise. Then repeat again tomorrow.


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Yes, join your May group and post roll. Thatís the cost of admission.

I quit two years ago, and gained about 20 pounds. I just took it off this past summer. My best advice to you is to do exactly as you are - concentrate on quitting, and lose the weight later.
I used nicotine in one form or another for a solid 9,000 days. Maybe someday Iíll quit posting roll. Maybe when Iíve reached the same number of days quit as the number I used. Until then, Iíll keep adding the +1s.
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Hope you hang around Hip Hop, you seem to have the potential to maintain your quit. You just need to learn what it takes. Read the link in my signature "Advice for Newbies". It's a start. Then, you can get through today. Maybe check out another link in my signature. Maybe check out my intro thread, which is really cool, because it has a table of contents. Or check out Rawl's intro. He's kind of an introspective dude too.

You have to post more than once though, if you want us to help you.
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Water.

tons of it, not just grabbing a bottle at the checkout at lowes or something, i mean like buy a case and see if you can finish it in three days. Or get a gallon and pack it around and see if you can drink it in a day.

I am still fighting with my weight but have been able to get back down to within 5 lbs of where I started from. It's not easy, but my quit is the third best thing ive done on my life (only behind my wife and two sons). You can do it one day at a time.
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So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

P.S.
I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.
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Hi. I'm glad you're still quit.

The way it works here is that if you want to get advice and support, you need to join a quit group, and post a daily promise to not use nicotine. That daily promise is called "posting roll". Each quit group is made up of quitters who all quit within a month of each other. Your group is the May 2018 group. Why May? Everyone in your group will reach 100 days quit within the month of May. The 100 day mark is celebrated here at KTC as a significant milestone.

So, here is a link to your May group. There are directions for posting roll at the top of each page in the thread. Take a moment to read the directions, but don't get too caught up in not screwing it up. The only way to screw up roll is by not being on roll. It usually takes two or three tries for most people to get proficient at posting roll. Once you are proficient at it, it takes about 30 seconds of your day to make your daily promise. That's it. Think about how much time you spent each day making sure you had a can. Pulling over to the store, waiting in line, helping the clerk grab your brand and flavor of choice. Was that more than 30 seconds? Can you afford the time to post roll?

It might seem strange to you to post a promise to a bunch of internet strangers. But, that's the secret to the success of this site. The members in May '18 will become your closest allies in your war against nicotine and tobacco. Trust me, and thousands of others who have used this program to quit.
I used nicotine in one form or another for a solid 9,000 days. Maybe someday Iíll quit posting roll. Maybe when Iíve reached the same number of days quit as the number I used. Until then, Iíll keep adding the +1s.
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So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

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I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.
All good stuff man... glad youíre here.

Iíll 2nd what some other quitters have told you... this REALLY works when you go all in the KTC way. Find your Quit Group and post roll every day. Roll is the price of admission here. Your presence every day in the trenches with those who are at the same stage you are. Iíll repeat it... roll every day is your ticket to all the KTC benefits. This isnít Facebook and we donít really hang with the occasional update mindset.

And, speaking of mindset... thereís a few things you need to chew on...

* We donít stop here. We Quit. Stop is a temporary mindset. Quit. Thatís what we do. Once and done.

* Tied closely to that is the fact that we donít advocate a ďtryĒ mentality. There is no luck involved, there is no hoping... there is only DOING. Own your decision. We do it this way because...

* We/you are addicts. We are addicted to a very horrible drug. Nicotine is drop for drop, every bit as evil as heroin. You didnít develop a habit... you became addicted. Itís a heavy thing to admit but it helps you to understand at what level you need to be involved with fighting for your freedom.

When you use ďputting it downĒ or ďstoppingĒ we see red flags that usually result in being unsuccessful. It may seem petty to you... you may have your own definitions but I gotta tell ya... most of us here are going to preach the same thing to ya.

We know how to do this... join us, man. You wonít regret it.
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So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

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I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.

Day: 7
I realized that I can kiss my wife more and more lately. I don't have to shy away from her just because a have a big fat dip in my lip that I don't want to be crushed between my cheek and gums. Just that simple thought brings me more joy than a dip of tobacco. I'm writing this all down so I can hold on to it. Hold on to the feeling that gets me through some tough times and cravings. Unreal how the mind works! It's like you have to play games with yourself just to distract from the cravings. One side of my brain is saying, everyone caves at one point...so you are only human...you can cave too...no big deal... you can always get back on track after just one more can of tobacco. The other side of my brain is saying...Don't do it! Look at all the things that have changed in your life in just a short period of time....Are you a wimp?! You are not a quitter!....think about your freedom! Its like a clash of the titans in my mind. Anyway day 7 feels like day 6...which was hard. The good news is that I didn't check my pockets this morning for a can of tobacco. Keys, Wallet, Phone, and that's it! No dip check! It's the small things....RIGHT!?
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Good on you for posting roll, and keeping up with this diary.

Now that the nicotine is flushed out of your system, and the physical withdrawals are over, it's all a mind game. I'm here to tell you that after 755 days, my nicotine still has a voice in my mind.

It all goes back to that daily promise. Nicotine tries to convince you that just one won't hurt, or that you can stop whenever you want to. Your comeback is simple - I made my promise, and I'm going to keep it.
I used nicotine in one form or another for a solid 9,000 days. Maybe someday Iíll quit posting roll. Maybe when Iíve reached the same number of days quit as the number I used. Until then, Iíll keep adding the +1s.
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Keep up the good work. Your off to a great start!!!!



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So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

P.S.
I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.

Day: 7
I realized that I can kiss my wife more and more lately. I don't have to shy away from her just because a have a big fat dip in my lip that I don't want to be crushed between my cheek and gums. Just that simple thought brings me more joy than a dip of tobacco. I'm writing this all down so I can hold on to it. Hold on to the feeling that gets me through some tough times and cravings. Unreal how the mind works! It's like you have to play games with yourself just to distract from the cravings. One side of my brain is saying, everyone caves at one point...so you are only human...you can cave too...no big deal... you can always get back on track after just one more can of tobacco. The other side of my brain is saying...Don't do it! Look at all the things that have changed in your life in just a short period of time....Are you a wimp?! You are not a quitter!....think about your freedom! Its like a clash of the titans in my mind. Anyway day 7 feels like day 6...which was hard. The good news is that I didn't check my pockets this morning for a can of tobacco. Keys, Wallet, Phone, and that's it! No dip check! It's the small things....RIGHT!?

Day: 8
Feel like shit today. It almost feels like day zero for me. I woke up feeling guilty and it was almost like I dipped again. I wonder if I had a dip dream? I need to focus on the good stuff to get me through days like this. My poops are better. I have solid shit now that I stopped. Just opened my wallet and found a coupon for $5.00 of a roll of grizzly. Damn it! My immediate thought was that I can't waste $5.00...then ripped it up on anger. I just realized I'm still signed up for coupons for grizzly. I need to make it stop. Anyway, my dip cheek is almost back to normal. The inside of my cheek is not bleached white from all the dead cells getting slaughter from all that shit I put in my mouth. The skin inside my mouth would fall out in chunks. I have never told this to anyone before. It was my secret. I knew if I told someone that my cheek was falling off one layer at a time and still continued to dip they would loss a little respect for me. BECAUSE IT IS INSANE! Very crabby today. It's almost like I'm mad at myself for forcing myself not to chew. Mad because I'm denying myself. Fucking Crazy Shit Man!???? Positive: My cheek is all better, my poops are better, and I taste food more. Soooooo, I think that's a good win for me today.

P.S. It's been 8 days now...so why does it feel like 8 months? Why do I feel like I should reward myself over only 8 days? I got a sick mind right now.
Edited by HipHop, Feb 15 2018, 10:27 AM.
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So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

P.S.
I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.

Day: 7
I realized that I can kiss my wife more and more lately. I don't have to shy away from her just because a have a big fat dip in my lip that I don't want to be crushed between my cheek and gums. Just that simple thought brings me more joy than a dip of tobacco. I'm writing this all down so I can hold on to it. Hold on to the feeling that gets me through some tough times and cravings. Unreal how the mind works! It's like you have to play games with yourself just to distract from the cravings. One side of my brain is saying, everyone caves at one point...so you are only human...you can cave too...no big deal... you can always get back on track after just one more can of tobacco. The other side of my brain is saying...Don't do it! Look at all the things that have changed in your life in just a short period of time....Are you a wimp?! You are not a quitter!....think about your freedom! Its like a clash of the titans in my mind. Anyway day 7 feels like day 6...which was hard. The good news is that I didn't check my pockets this morning for a can of tobacco. Keys, Wallet, Phone, and that's it! No dip check! It's the small things....RIGHT!?

Day: 8
Feel like shit today. It almost feels like day zero for me. I woke up feeling guilty and it was almost like I dipped again. I wonder if I had a dip dream? I need to focus on the good stuff to get me through days like this. My poops are better. I have solid shit now that I stopped. Just opened my wallet and found a coupon for $5.00 of a roll of grizzly. Damn it! My immediate thought was that I can't waste $5.00...then ripped it up on anger. I just realized I'm still signed up for coupons for grizzly. I need to make it stop. Anyway, my dip cheek is almost back to normal. The inside of my cheek is not bleached white from all the dead cells getting slaughter from all that shit I put in my mouth. The skin inside my mouth would fall out in chunks. I have never told this to anyone before. It was my secret. I knew if I told someone that my cheek was falling off one layer at a time and still continued to dip they would loss a little respect for me. BECAUSE IT IS INSANE! Very crabby today. It's almost like I'm mad at myself for forcing myself not to chew. Mad because I'm denying myself. Fucking Crazy Shit Man!???? Positive: My cheek is all better, my poops are better, and I taste food more. Soooooo, I think that's a good win for me today.

P.S. It's been 8 days now...so why does it feel like 8 months? Why do I feel like I should reward myself over only 8 days? I got a sick mind right now.
My opinion is you are too soon into this, it's going to take some time for you to stop worrying about how many days it's been. Whatever you can do to keep yourself occupied, do it to keep your brain from thinking as much as possible. Remember, you have lost your "So called best friend in life" it's going to take some time. I promise you, quitting dipping was harder than any break-up I have experienced.

Good job on starting a movement to encourage others to quit.
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So Today is going on my 5th day I have put down dipping. Not any easier than day 3 or 4. I was able to drink alcohol this weekend without dipping. I believe alcohol is one of my triggers that spark an internal debate in my head about why I should be dipping at that moment. I gained 5 pounds already. I can't stop putting gum, candy and food in my mouth. My wife told me that if gaining 10 pounds is a side effect, then you can live with that. "take one step at a time and focus on stopping" , then, "you can focus on your weight gain. I have found that cinnamon gum works the best to sooth the craving for a little while. Anyway, on day 5 and telling everyone I see about it. I just told a co-worker that I'm stopping because I'm 40. Told him that anything after that you are just going against the odds that something will happen to you related to tobacco use. High blood pressure, stoke, cancer, all that stuff. Just ate a half a roll of Mentos* while typing this. OK... back to work.

So, I made it another day. Going on day 6. I would have thought that days 2 and 3 would be the worst days. But hell no! So far day 5 and 6 are the worst. Days 2-3 ...I was bewildered on how great I felt, how much energy I had, how excited it was, now that honey moon is all over. I'm just left with myself now and the boredom of work. Work is when I dipped the most. I have my own office and I'm the boss, so I can get away with snuff in my face all day long. I have three open packs of gum and one Ice Breakers mints to the right of me now. At least my breath is better! I read some stuff on the website about spouses and what they should expect. I really never thought of it, but my wife (12 years) has never known me with out dip. I'm going to be a different person and that excites me. These are all just random thoughts that happened last night or this morning.....Someone just walked into my office and told me that It takes 27 (very specific) days to create a behavior in your brain. I said, cool! I need to make it through the month than and I will be the best gum chewer this side of the Mississippi. Day 6! Here I am!

P.S.
I'ts funny that since I'm announcing my stopping tobacco, everyone else around me is stopping too. Told my mother last night and she immediately said, me too. I think I started a very different MeToo movement.

Day: 7
I realized that I can kiss my wife more and more lately. I don't have to shy away from her just because a have a big fat dip in my lip that I don't want to be crushed between my cheek and gums. Just that simple thought brings me more joy than a dip of tobacco. I'm writing this all down so I can hold on to it. Hold on to the feeling that gets me through some tough times and cravings. Unreal how the mind works! It's like you have to play games with yourself just to distract from the cravings. One side of my brain is saying, everyone caves at one point...so you are only human...you can cave too...no big deal... you can always get back on track after just one more can of tobacco. The other side of my brain is saying...Don't do it! Look at all the things that have changed in your life in just a short period of time....Are you a wimp?! You are not a quitter!....think about your freedom! Its like a clash of the titans in my mind. Anyway day 7 feels like day 6...which was hard. The good news is that I didn't check my pockets this morning for a can of tobacco. Keys, Wallet, Phone, and that's it! No dip check! It's the small things....RIGHT!?

Day: 8
Feel like shit today. It almost feels like day zero for me. I woke up feeling guilty and it was almost like I dipped again. I wonder if I had a dip dream? I need to focus on the good stuff to get me through days like this. My poops are better. I have solid shit now that I stopped. Just opened my wallet and found a coupon for $5.00 of a roll of grizzly. Damn it! My immediate thought was that I can't waste $5.00...then ripped it up on anger. I just realized I'm still signed up for coupons for grizzly. I need to make it stop. Anyway, my dip cheek is almost back to normal. The inside of my cheek is not bleached white from all the dead cells getting slaughter from all that shit I put in my mouth. The skin inside my mouth would fall out in chunks. I have never told this to anyone before. It was my secret. I knew if I told someone that my cheek was falling off one layer at a time and still continued to dip they would loss a little respect for me. BECAUSE IT IS INSANE! Very crabby today. It's almost like I'm mad at myself for forcing myself not to chew. Mad because I'm denying myself. Fucking Crazy Shit Man!???? Positive: My cheek is all better, my poops are better, and I taste food more. Soooooo, I think that's a good win for me today.

P.S. It's been 8 days now...so why does it feel like 8 months? Why do I feel like I should reward myself over only 8 days? I got a sick mind right now.


Day: 9
I threw away a spitter this morning. It was a coffee cup full of my spit on my desk (with lid). I don't know why I kept it there for over a week now. I guess it was a reminder or it was that I wasn't very serious about stopping. I dumped it in the toilet and I vomited in my mouth because of the stench of it all. I dipped in front of anyone and had my spitter in plain sight to all. I realize now that, I was a very disgusting person. People must have really liked my personality in order to put up with that disgusting behavior. Anyway, I feel good day. I'm excited to reach double digits this weekend. My wife is being very supportive with me. She realized last night that she can kiss me anytime she wants and doesn't have to worry about dip. She was talking about french style if you know what I mean? Huba Huba..... Future me, Just remember how hard it has already been and to throw that away and start over would be crazy making.
Edited by HipHop, Feb 16 2018, 10:18 AM.
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