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* Just for Today; 100 Days, 1 day at a time
Topic Started: Apr 12 2017, 02:16 PM (575 Views)
batdad
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100 days 1 day at a time...

My story isn't much different than anyone else's. I was young when I started. I knew I was addicted, but always justified it by saying there are worse things to be addicted to. I come from a long line of alcoholics, so I tried to stay vigilant when it came to drinking and drugs. I never wanted to be an addict... Isn't that something an addict would say?

I loved tobacco. I smoked cigarettes, cigars, chewed and even for a brief time in my teen years used a pipe. Any way I could get that fix I was down for it. I have tried to stop before. I never kept track of how long in any of those stops, but I know not a single one has been 100 days.

I remember my last couple dips... I was sitting on the couch, snuggling with my youngest son and we were watching TV. I moved my son so I could grab a dip and spitter and sit back down. And at that moment, I realized I loved dip more than I loved my sons... That scared me, I fight hard to see them every chance I get. You see, if I loved my son more, I would not have pushed him away so I could put that dead plant in my mouth! Something had to change. After I tucked my kids in for the night I went to have the another dip before bed. It happened to be the last one in the tin. Normally I would have ran to the store to get stocked up before morning, but I made a choice. I made a choice to wait until morning to get that tin. And it is a choice that brings me here today.

The next day, I chose to skip going to the store... I chose to see if I could go all day without a dip! It wasn’t easy, I had a 3 hour car ride to drop my sons off that night and a day surrounded by smokers and chewers. But I did it! And guess what? I woke up the next day and did it again.

About 60 hours in I was searching the internet for the side effects of quitting tobacco. And I stumbled across this site. I started reading and I found the forum, and I signed up. They don't have a ton of rules around here. You have to be nicotine free and all you have to post roll. I figured why not?. Next thing you know I have these guys calling me out, welcoming me to this brotherhood... What kind of insane asylum did I stumble into? For some reason I came back the next day and told a bunch of strangers I wasn't going to use nicotine... As time went on, these guys talked about getting digits. I received my first one from RDB and I figured why not. Turns out these crazy people know a thing or two about quitting nicotine, just the answer I was looking for.

Every day I returned and told a pile of strangers I was not going to use nicotine today. Those days continued to add up. I continued to add phone numbers to my phone. Around my day 40 I got to meet Viking, MNx and PMILS. This was an experience that would change my quit. After that, the people I was making my promise to were real. And I was real to them, I couldn't just turn my back on them and not post my promise today. Around the 80 day mark someone asked me if I was excited for the HoF - The first milestone in this journey. And it hit me like a ton of bricks - I didn't want to make it to 100 - I didn't know if I wanted to quit forever... But I have no problem quitting today. Nicotine is still controlling my life. From the moment I wake up, to the moment I post roll it is in charge. Once I post roll, it is no longer an option for the day. And that works for me. I can’t predict what tomorrow will bring, but I feel like I will be back here again posting day 101. I know some people set a bigger goals making it 100, 200 or even 1,000 days. But for me I just want to be quit today. I don't need to replace one addiction with another, because I am only quitting today.

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To anyone reading this. Know that I want you to be quit today! Yes you!! Be quit today! Shoot me a PM if you want to talk. Shoot me your digits if you would rather text. Even if today is the worst day ever, we can make it without nicotine.

26 years Nicotine has been a part of my life. I don't know a world without it. I may never know a world without it. But I do know I do not need it today.

Nicotine is not my friend.
I am not cured.
I am also not broken.
I am simply an addict.
I quit today, and will probably be quit tomorrow.

Quit On!!!

Batdad
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HoF 4/12/17
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Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire


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