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3rd time quitter. First time using what I know.; Full Understanding of what I know professionally
Topic Started: Mar 3 2016, 01:44 PM (4,037 Views)
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Rawls
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Apr 21 2016, 10:12 AM
Post day 50. I honestly didn't even realize that I had made it 50 days +. i am very grateful for every bodies support. The few times people have had to text me I am extremely grateful for. in my previous times of quitting the struggle was daily. However, with this, it has been a relative breeze (Not saying that withdrawals have been fun). This is purely a marking of a milestone for me. Not because I have never made it this far without it. But, I have never been this far in recovery.

Stay vigilante, stay strong, drink water.




Just for today, Self.
Looking good.... Real good.
Appreciate your help!
Congrats! Keep it up, you're owning your quit and nurturing some real quit strength. Good to celebrate every victory and milestone- you earn each one!
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Nice 50!
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I understand anxiety. I understand wanting to be safe. I understand not wanting harassment. But, I also know that if your quit really means something to you, you will reach out. The very first thing I did after roll and after intro. was to reach out to Irish. Glad I did. So, here is an open invitation to all of you on this list. I am reaching out to you in an open forum. Ladies and Gentlemen. I can only keep what I can only give away.


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Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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Appreciate you bro. Quit on!
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Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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kubiackalpha
Apr 26 2016, 10:14 AM
Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
First off, happy birthday KA. Secondly, you made the right choice. Try to think long and hard what you would have gotten out of having that dip. Other than shitting on all your brethren in this house, seriously think about what it would have accomplished. Would it have made your dog heal quicker? Reduced your stress? Taken the cops off your doorstep? Nada. It would have done nothing but give you a better chance to lose your jaw, your teeth, or God forbid, your life. Good on you for making the right choice, but let's be honest, there wasn't even really a choice.
"Fuck nicotine dude. You don't need it. And you don't want it. It didn't do a thing for you and you know it." - worktowin
"today you dissided that shit wont control your life. and it wont. unless you let it." - drome
"Not thinking about nicotine is for people who've never used nicotine. We threw that option away with the first dip or drag on a cigarette. We are addicts, and cannot become un-addicted." - wildirish317
"You need to decide how much you really want to be quit." - pky1520
We are always at risk. And probably always will be. That is why I will never get "too quit" to post my +1. Every. Damn. Day. - geis2597

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Apr 26 2016, 10:47 AM
kubiackalpha
Apr 26 2016, 10:14 AM
Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
First off, happy birthday KA. Secondly, you made the right choice. Try to think long and hard what you would have gotten out of having that dip. Other than shitting on all your brethren in this house, seriously think about what it would have accomplished. Would it have made your dog heal quicker? Reduced your stress? Taken the cops off your doorstep? Nada. It would have done nothing but give you a better chance to lose your jaw, your teeth, or God forbid, your life. Good on you for making the right choice, but let's be honest, there wasn't even really a choice.
Absolutely right, Brother! Not going to let that 1.0 oz can rule my life. Not then and not today.
Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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Apr 26 2016, 12:56 PM
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Apr 26 2016, 10:47 AM
kubiackalpha
Apr 26 2016, 10:14 AM
Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
First off, happy birthday KA. Secondly, you made the right choice. Try to think long and hard what you would have gotten out of having that dip. Other than shitting on all your brethren in this house, seriously think about what it would have accomplished. Would it have made your dog heal quicker? Reduced your stress? Taken the cops off your doorstep? Nada. It would have done nothing but give you a better chance to lose your jaw, your teeth, or God forbid, your life. Good on you for making the right choice, but let's be honest, there wasn't even really a choice.
Absolutely right, Brother! Not going to let that 1.0 oz can rule my life. Not then and not today.
WOW. Such compasion. Much owner. Doge wub you.

The police, on the other hand, owe you an apology. Chin up brother, better days ahead.
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wildirish317
Apr 26 2016, 02:12 PM
kubiackalpha
Apr 26 2016, 12:56 PM
KingNothing
Apr 26 2016, 10:47 AM
kubiackalpha
Apr 26 2016, 10:14 AM
Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
First off, happy birthday KA. Secondly, you made the right choice. Try to think long and hard what you would have gotten out of having that dip. Other than shitting on all your brethren in this house, seriously think about what it would have accomplished. Would it have made your dog heal quicker? Reduced your stress? Taken the cops off your doorstep? Nada. It would have done nothing but give you a better chance to lose your jaw, your teeth, or God forbid, your life. Good on you for making the right choice, but let's be honest, there wasn't even really a choice.
Absolutely right, Brother! Not going to let that 1.0 oz can rule my life. Not then and not today.
WOW. Such compasion. Much owner. Doge wub you.

The police, on the other hand, owe you an apology. Chin up brother, better days ahead.
man, what a story. Keep hanging in there. Things get so much better as you go. Life's curveballs don't stop but overall freedom from that can and poison is amazing. You're breaking into the light already, clearly.
Took my freedom back October 23, 2013.

Here's an article that taught me a lot and made me hate the addiction: Nicotine Addiction 101-- newer quitters check it out-- and vets do it too, to breathe new life into your quit!

24 Quitters I have met: Ihatecope, >Pinched<, T-Cell, grizzlyhasclaws, Canvasback, BaseballPlayer, Cbird65, ERDVM, BradleyGuy, Ted, Zeno, AppleJack, Bronc, Knockout, MookieBlaylock, Rdad, 2mch2lv4, MN_Ben, Natro, Lippizaner, Amquash, ChristopherJ, GDubya, Mogul. Each one was a real honor and continues to fortify my resolve to stay QUIT!
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Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Stay strong kubiackalpha!
Congrats on day 66!
It gets better....... Lots better.
Let the engine (truth) pull the train.
The (emotional) caboose will follow!
Your right on track brother. ODAAT
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 534
Just an old sinner, wanting to show another, where he can get a free meal. The Cross
And a 38 year addict, wanting to show another, where he can get a free Quit. KTC
Not what I should be..or could be....but better than what I used to be.

I BELIEVE.......


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kubiackalpha
May 4 2016, 10:34 AM
Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Stay strong kubiackalpha!
Congrats on day 66!
It gets better....... Lots better.
Let the engine (truth) pull the train.
The (emotional) caboose will follow!
Your right on track brother. ODAAT
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 534
K, it's called "Post-acute withdrawal". I'm going through it too. Read about in my intro for more details. It won't make you feel any better, but at least you'll know you're "normal" (at least not any more focked up than the rest of us).
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wildirish317
May 4 2016, 05:05 PM
Rawls
May 4 2016, 11:01 AM
kubiackalpha
May 4 2016, 10:34 AM
Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Stay strong kubiackalpha!
Congrats on day 66!
It gets better....... Lots better.
Let the engine (truth) pull the train.
The (emotional) caboose will follow!
Your right on track brother. ODAAT
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 534
K, it's called "Post-acute withdrawal". I'm going through it too. Read about in my intro for more details. It won't make you feel any better, but at least you'll know you're "normal" (at least not any more focked up than the rest of us).
I've been through several stages of depression all throughout my quit days. I do seem to feel like it is fewer and farther between, but can be aggravated by events in my life.
Hang in there and know it is only temporary.
"The load doesn't weigh me down at all... he ain't heavy, he's my brother"

"Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think."

"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack ----------- "I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP

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kubiackalpha
May 4 2016, 10:34 AM
Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Stay strong kubiackalpha!
Congrats on day 66!
It gets better....... Lots better.
Let the engine (truth) pull the train.
The (emotional) caboose will follow!
Your right on track brother. ODAAT
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 534
K, it's called "Post-acute withdrawal". I'm going through it too. Read about in my intro for more details. It won't make you feel any better, but at least you'll know you're "normal" (at least not any more focked up than the rest of us).
I've been through several stages of depression all throughout my quit days. I do seem to feel like it is fewer and farther between, but can be aggravated by events in my life.
Hang in there and know it is only temporary.
Edited by ChickDip, May 4 2016, 06:37 PM.
"The load doesn't weigh me down at all... he ain't heavy, he's my brother"

"Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think."

"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack ----------- "I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP

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kubiackalpha
May 4 2016, 10:34 AM
Again. Just another piece of evidence that shows that it isnt 30 days and done. I am exceptionally depressed today. I don't have any reason to be, really. I have hit the water hard this morning already sucked down 50 oz of it in less than 2 hours. I have walked every where this morning rather than driving my cart to the places on the farm. First walk was 25 minutes from my office. I hoped that would de funk me. Been walking since 7a.m. I quit today. I quit this hour. I quit this minute. This very moment I quit. It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic it is just to put something down on paper.
Stay strong kubiackalpha!
Congrats on day 66!
It gets better....... Lots better.
Let the engine (truth) pull the train.
The (emotional) caboose will follow!
Your right on track brother. ODAAT
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 534
K, it's called "Post-acute withdrawal". I'm going through it too. Read about in my intro for more details. It won't make you feel any better, but at least you'll know you're "normal" (at least not any more focked up than the rest of us).
I've been through several stages of depression all throughout my quit days. I do seem to feel like it is fewer and farther between, but can be aggravated by events in my life.
Hang in there and know it is only temporary.
Thanks guys.

P.A.W.S. Yep. For sure.

I spent a little too much time in the sun today. I am hoping that it soon does it thing and give me a natural mood stabilizer boost.

This weekend I am going to angrily tear the carpet out of at least one bedroom and maybe the living room. Yes. I said angrily tear. I really do feel as if a physical draining will do some good. I also need someone to emotionally vomit to that wont judge. Wish i was still in contact with my therapist. Yes. Therapists have Therapists or Counselors have Counselors.
Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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So. Very. Tired. That is all.
Ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight? I ask that of all my prey. I just like the sound of it.

Honest words only work if it comes from an honest man.

I lack the understanding of how someone as Fu(k#d up as you can produce offspring that aren't putting dog turds in bread and calling it a hot dog!

I left my shotgun on the porch fully loaded and cocked. It didn't kill a single person.

I have screwed up this time sheet 6 damn times! No. Now you just know how not to do something six more ways.

Sometimes. Special little butterflies just need to realize they are a moth, find an open candle flame, fly face first into it.
(If you think that is about you then...well Cinderella, if the shoe fits).

Baggy leg shorts + fly season + my office is a barn = odd looks from co workers that don't understand and a call to HR for lewd conduct.



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