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My day 1...I don't even have the words...
Topic Started: Apr 7 2015, 11:01 PM (4,588 Views)
Wt57
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hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
4/1/2012: Nicotine Quit Date
7/9/12: HOF The Missing Warning Label
TODAY is the day that counts
"Do, or do not, there is no try." Yoda
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Wt57
Apr 10 2015, 10:09 AM
hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
Gotta walk off my friend! Right or wrong man up grab your sac walkoff! Hey look at those kids they need you to do this as bad as you need this! Prayers for you friend! You got this, who says that this is not the devil in the tin working on you! You've got to give this your all! Want it more than anything you ever wanted! Be strong, be the man! Do not be defeated! I struggle nearly every day but I shrug it off smile and say not today nic bitch! We all here to help! Reach out! Just addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but not everyone can handle the quit!
ROLL TIDE ROLL! God, Family and crappie fishing! I will always be an addict, but hopefully never a slave again!
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pab1964
Apr 10 2015, 10:22 AM
Wt57
Apr 10 2015, 10:09 AM
hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
Gotta walk off my friend! Right or wrong man up grab your sac walkoff! Hey look at those kids they need you to do this as bad as you need this! Prayers for you friend! You got this, who says that this is not the devil in the tin working on you! You've got to give this your all! Want it more than anything you ever wanted! Be strong, be the man! Do not be defeated! I struggle nearly every day but I shrug it off smile and say not today nic bitch! We all here to help! Reach out! Just addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but not everyone can handle the quit!
Hey brother... I feel you. I've been in ministry for a couple decades now. Through all of it I chewed like it was my job. This quitting is a hard thing to reconcile sometimes where faith is concerned. One thing along the lines of family... Be extremely open about why you're bein such a butt. Educate them on the physical/mental crap that is going on. Involve them, hand in hand. Healing that will happen together is just as needed as the healing you are going through. Now... Here's the tough one... Give yourself some grace m'man. You are goin through some hell and everything, I mean EVERYTHING, in your life is being reworked as you move further away from nicotine. Christ isn't going anywhere, man... If you aren't in a place to be eloquent in prayer... Dude, He knows. Even if you're just crying out for help and strength to get through, it's alright. His grace, His gift, to you is this site. That's how I chose, and still choose, to look at it. Allow yourself a li'l grace...
Day 1... 4-17-13


Well, it's one louder isn't it? It's not ten.
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Apr 10 2015, 11:31 AM
pab1964
Apr 10 2015, 10:22 AM
Wt57
Apr 10 2015, 10:09 AM
hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
Gotta walk off my friend! Right or wrong man up grab your sac walkoff! Hey look at those kids they need you to do this as bad as you need this! Prayers for you friend! You got this, who says that this is not the devil in the tin working on you! You've got to give this your all! Want it more than anything you ever wanted! Be strong, be the man! Do not be defeated! I struggle nearly every day but I shrug it off smile and say not today nic bitch! We all here to help! Reach out! Just addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but not everyone can handle the quit!
Hey brother... I feel you. I've been in ministry for a couple decades now. Through all of it I chewed like it was my job. This quitting is a hard thing to reconcile sometimes where faith is concerned. One thing along the lines of family... Be extremely open about why you're bein such a butt. Educate them on the physical/mental crap that is going on. Involve them, hand in hand. Healing that will happen together is just as needed as the healing you are going through. Now... Here's the tough one... Give yourself some grace m'man. You are goin through some hell and everything, I mean EVERYTHING, in your life is being reworked as you move further away from nicotine. Christ isn't going anywhere, man... If you aren't in a place to be eloquent in prayer... Dude, He knows. Even if you're just crying out for help and strength to get through, it's alright. His grace, His gift, to you is this site. That's how I chose, and still choose, to look at it. Allow yourself a li'l grace...
Well said AJ! That was some good stuff, needed that myself! Thanks!
ROLL TIDE ROLL! God, Family and crappie fishing! I will always be an addict, but hopefully never a slave again!
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pab1964
Apr 10 2015, 02:29 PM
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Apr 10 2015, 11:31 AM
pab1964
Apr 10 2015, 10:22 AM
Wt57
Apr 10 2015, 10:09 AM
hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
Gotta walk off my friend! Right or wrong man up grab your sac walkoff! Hey look at those kids they need you to do this as bad as you need this! Prayers for you friend! You got this, who says that this is not the devil in the tin working on you! You've got to give this your all! Want it more than anything you ever wanted! Be strong, be the man! Do not be defeated! I struggle nearly every day but I shrug it off smile and say not today nic bitch! We all here to help! Reach out! Just addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but not everyone can handle the quit!
Hey brother... I feel you. I've been in ministry for a couple decades now. Through all of it I chewed like it was my job. This quitting is a hard thing to reconcile sometimes where faith is concerned. One thing along the lines of family... Be extremely open about why you're bein such a butt. Educate them on the physical/mental crap that is going on. Involve them, hand in hand. Healing that will happen together is just as needed as the healing you are going through. Now... Here's the tough one... Give yourself some grace m'man. You are goin through some hell and everything, I mean EVERYTHING, in your life is being reworked as you move further away from nicotine. Christ isn't going anywhere, man... If you aren't in a place to be eloquent in prayer... Dude, He knows. Even if you're just crying out for help and strength to get through, it's alright. His grace, His gift, to you is this site. That's how I chose, and still choose, to look at it. Allow yourself a li'l grace...
Well said AJ! That was some good stuff, needed that myself! Thanks!
You didn't find Ktc as a fluke. Was it luck, or did a higher power help lead you here?

I dunno Hando, but I know that this site helps, and is the difference between a stop and a quit. This time, you are quit. Thank God.

One foot in front of the other.

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Quit Date 12/24/2012
HOF 4/2/2013
Comma 9/19/2015
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Apr 10 2015, 07:33 PM
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Apr 10 2015, 02:29 PM
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Apr 10 2015, 11:31 AM
pab1964
Apr 10 2015, 10:22 AM
Wt57
Apr 10 2015, 10:09 AM
hando
Apr 10 2015, 09:25 AM
Rawls
Apr 9 2015, 11:58 PM
Keep taking those big breaths brother. You can do this.
You also have a great group forming to help in those times when it seems there is no oxygen to breath in.
We have all done it.... So can you. ODAAT.
PM if you ever need any help.
Rawls,

I see that you and I are both the same kind of 'gambler'. If you could pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it brother. Specifically for a softened heart toward my wife and kids. Two days in a row and we've had some pretty bad arguments - stupid stuff, but it just triggers something in me. I'm ok for a while as we argue, but then she just keeps picking and picking and I can't help it but fire back...

Here's the hardest part. Since the start of the quit, my strength/faith in Christ has grown cynical, as if to say that He can't do anything to help me. In fact, I don't even want to pray about it. The quit is making me irrational/unreasonable. This used to happen some mornings at home on weekends when I couldn't get a fix. Now that i'm 4 days in, i'm really unreasonable.

i'm making it...
Don't doubt that through his grace this is possible. The anger and fight is part of the suck of quitting. Don't take your pain out on the family they aren't the fools that poisoned you. Hang in there Handjob you can do this.
Gotta walk off my friend! Right or wrong man up grab your sac walkoff! Hey look at those kids they need you to do this as bad as you need this! Prayers for you friend! You got this, who says that this is not the devil in the tin working on you! You've got to give this your all! Want it more than anything you ever wanted! Be strong, be the man! Do not be defeated! I struggle nearly every day but I shrug it off smile and say not today nic bitch! We all here to help! Reach out! Just addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but not everyone can handle the quit!
Hey brother... I feel you. I've been in ministry for a couple decades now. Through all of it I chewed like it was my job. This quitting is a hard thing to reconcile sometimes where faith is concerned. One thing along the lines of family... Be extremely open about why you're bein such a butt. Educate them on the physical/mental crap that is going on. Involve them, hand in hand. Healing that will happen together is just as needed as the healing you are going through. Now... Here's the tough one... Give yourself some grace m'man. You are goin through some hell and everything, I mean EVERYTHING, in your life is being reworked as you move further away from nicotine. Christ isn't going anywhere, man... If you aren't in a place to be eloquent in prayer... Dude, He knows. Even if you're just crying out for help and strength to get through, it's alright. His grace, His gift, to you is this site. That's how I chose, and still choose, to look at it. Allow yourself a li'l grace...
Well said AJ! That was some good stuff, needed that myself! Thanks!
You didn't find Ktc as a fluke. Was it luck, or did a higher power help lead you here?

I dunno Hando, but I know that this site helps, and is the difference between a stop and a quit. This time, you are quit. Thank God.

One foot in front of the other.

-w2w
Booooom..... How is that for some answered prayer. Strong support in the halls of KTC.

Yes I will pray for you.
He has blessed you with your wife and kids.
Don't quit for them and bring on resentment towards them. Let them be the benefactor of your decision to not be chained by another Idol.

Quit for you...... You know it needs to die. Let it die and be excited about your new identity.

They want and need to follow you. They need you to lead them, with patience, understanding, gentleness and forgiveness.
When you quit for the right reasons, you will gain respect and teach them how to handle future situations in their own life's.

I pray you receive wisdom and patience to overcome the lies of nicotine.

I Respect your decision to quit. Now let's put some work behind our decision and learn from men with experience above ours that have learned to quit by replacing chemicals with relationships.

Read and stay here fighting the addiction with the same energy you used to feed your addiction.

And last.. Don't ever stop praying. When would it be OK for your own kids to quit asking you for your help?

Swords sharpen Swords.
I just PMed you my Sword Numbers. Call anytime.

Ps.... Go buy your wife some new walking shoes... Ask here to go on walks. Share your struggles and victories about quitting with her, being YOUR IDEA.
Then don't try and fix her... Just let her vent.
After that... Be prepared for some good ol fashion "Necking"
Your quit will be so rewarding, one day you will thank Him for the struggles you are going through today.
I quit with you and your family.
Rawls
Just an old sinner, wanting to show another, where he can get a free meal. The Cross
And a 38 year addict, wanting to show another, where he can get a free Quit. KTC
Not what I should be..or could be....but better than what I used to be.

I BELIEVE.......


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Quitting with you this weekend Hando.
Took my freedom back October 23, 2013.

Here's an article that taught me a lot and made me hate the addiction: Nicotine Addiction 101-- newer quitters check it out-- and vets do it too, to breathe new life into your quit!

24 Quitters I have met: Ihatecope, >Pinched<, T-Cell, grizzlyhasclaws, Canvasback, BaseballPlayer, Cbird65, ERDVM, BradleyGuy, Ted, Zeno, AppleJack, Bronc, Knockout, MookieBlaylock, Rdad, 2mch2lv4, MN_Ben, Natro, Lippizaner, Amquash, ChristopherJ, GDubya, Mogul. Each one was a real honor and continues to fortify my resolve to stay QUIT!
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Prayers sent up for the first quit weekend. I can't say it better than AJ & those that followed him laid out with the faith part of it. God is with you. Not sure how long your quit lasted before but one thing I remember as a new quitter was relearning to do everything without dip. The change from work week to weekend, though I'm not sure what your duty hours are like in the army, might well bring some of those on. My weekend is spring Yardwork. When I quit I couldn't remember the last time I'd run the mower without a dip. Be mindful if new triggers this weekend & come on here if you need.
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Hi Hando. Your first quit weekend huh? You will have a lot of "firsts". In the beginning, you will feel nervous about doing things for the first time without dip because it's still new and you still carry apprehension about your ability to remain quit. Keep posting roll. You can do this.

Later on, your "firsts" will be energizing. They will strengthen your quit because you realize that you CAN and ARE remaining quit. It starts to feel pretty good. You even grin a bit here and there. Keep posting roll.

Finally, you approach the "firsts" with your head held high and a steamroller attitude because you ARE quit and you LIVE quit. You now experience hatred for dip, for big tobacco, for the years wasted, etc. You are strong. You are free. You are quit. You however are not cured. Keep posting roll.

Enjoy your quit weekend. We don't get time off. Our quit is a constant just like our addiction. I'll be here all weekend quitting like a girl.....with you.
Edited by Ginet, Apr 11 2015, 02:53 PM.
The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person who is doing it. ~ Chinese Proverb
Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply. ~ Stephen R. Covey

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I'm side by side quitting with you today! Go have family night without the olé interruptions! Let's do this together my friend! Proud to be quit with you today!
ROLL TIDE ROLL! God, Family and crappie fishing! I will always be an addict, but hopefully never a slave again!
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How'd you do through the weekend?
Took my freedom back October 23, 2013.

Here's an article that taught me a lot and made me hate the addiction: Nicotine Addiction 101-- newer quitters check it out-- and vets do it too, to breathe new life into your quit!

24 Quitters I have met: Ihatecope, >Pinched<, T-Cell, grizzlyhasclaws, Canvasback, BaseballPlayer, Cbird65, ERDVM, BradleyGuy, Ted, Zeno, AppleJack, Bronc, Knockout, MookieBlaylock, Rdad, 2mch2lv4, MN_Ben, Natro, Lippizaner, Amquash, ChristopherJ, GDubya, Mogul. Each one was a real honor and continues to fortify my resolve to stay QUIT!
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brettlees
Apr 13 2015, 09:15 AM
How'd you do through the weekend?
Hando, tough weekend, easy weekend, none of that matters. There will be some bad days especially in the beginning but you will find that the healing (mental and physical) follows a pretty steep upward arc. The main thing is that you posted each day this weekend, and honored your word.
Badass Brother!
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Totally missed all of y'all's posts from the past few days. It means lot that folks are always looking out and watching my 6 everyday. Weekend went well - kept busy and stayed focused. Had the honor of serving as a flag folder for a military funeral on Sunday. Helped keep things in perspective.

Today was awful...the worst I've had since day 3. Even had a slight panic attack this afternoon, which I've never experienced. But pulled through, worked through until midnight tonight, and socked another victory. These late evening have always been facilitated by nicotine, and I showed myself that I could do without.

I'm still in awe of the team that has so quickly formed and rallied around me. I'm so grateful for you all. Thank you for setting the example.
There are two kingdoms and they are at war with one another; the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of light. Unfortunately, we are born into the kingdom of darkness and Satan is the king. Satan is very crafty. He says, "You don't have to serve me, just serve yourself." But in the end, we receive darkness, death, and destruction. On the other hand, there's the kingdom of light and the King is Jesus. He came to earth and died on a cross, was buried, and rose from the dead to forgive us of our sins. If we will turn from our selfish ways, receive His forgiveness, and surrender our lives to Him as our King, He gives us light, life, and love. We live in this little bubble called life (70-80 years) and when it pops, whichever king we served is where we will spend all eternity.
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Are you ready to do this? Today is the big day 1. Today you quit! It's great to quit this terrible addiction. I'm proud of you and I thank you for your service you are now even more of a bad ass. I gotta run I'll follow up later.

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Keep a check on those panic attacks & if they happen again go see your doc. They have meds that really help. It's not uncommon for guys here to end up on all manner of anti depressants & such, and they do have meds to help panic attacks. Mine were bad after quitting & still on meds for them. Looking back on it now, did tobacco mess with my brain chemistry? Probably. But they started for me before I quit only they were managed & I didn't recognize it at the time. Was I using as a form of self medication? Probably. No matter what though a doc can help with that & it's not uncommon in quitters so don't be afraid to seek help.
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