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| Tweet Topic Started: Apr 7 2015, 11:01 PM (4,582 Views) | |
| hando | Apr 7 2015, 11:01 PM Post #1 |
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Quit Disciple
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I'm 36 years old, and dipped for over half my life. Quit numerous times before, relying on the gum to wean me off. Now the gum is part of my regular nicotine intake, chewed in places where even my 'cheek tuck' is not acceptable - in places where I pretend I don't have a problem like church, Awana, cub scouts, or when I'm coaching youth sports. At work (Army) dipping is accepted/encouraged/cool. Outside of work, I'm really embarrassed and ashamed that I can't control something in my life. My sons are always curious about daddy's funny gum, which is better than asking what's in my lip. I'm great at hiding it, but I know that I'm an imposter, anxious to get in the truck to throw in a dip in the morning, knowing that the only times I will be dipless during the day is when I'm eating. I'm ready to do this. Even as I write this, I feel something different than the other times. I will need y'all's help. I am weak, illogical with excuses, always stressed out, I could go on. Tomorrow will be interesting. I can do this. |
| There are two kingdoms and they are at war with one another; the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of light. Unfortunately, we are born into the kingdom of darkness and Satan is the king. Satan is very crafty. He says, "You don't have to serve me, just serve yourself." But in the end, we receive darkness, death, and destruction. On the other hand, there's the kingdom of light and the King is Jesus. He came to earth and died on a cross, was buried, and rose from the dead to forgive us of our sins. If we will turn from our selfish ways, receive His forgiveness, and surrender our lives to Him as our King, He gives us light, life, and love. We live in this little bubble called life (70-80 years) and when it pops, whichever king we served is where we will spend all eternity. | |
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| worktowin | Apr 7 2015, 11:12 PM Post #2 |
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I’m not a tow truck driver
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Fuck yes you can do this. Dude, you are in the right place. Nicotine is all lies. First, the gum... Have you ever heard of an alcoholic being told to quit vodka by switching to beer? Or a crack addict being encouraged by their doctor to use cocaine to quit? So... Why would nicotine replacement work? It doesn't. Period. What does nicotine do for you? Well... It takes away the withdrawal of not using it. That's it. Nothing else. No buzz. No reward. It just takes the bad away. A bad ass like you, a man that lives for his kids and his country... Dude you can suck it up for a little while and let the bad work its way out of your system. Yep, it is no fun at first. But, when you look at your kids and they recognize that your funny lip is gone... That inner pride will carry you far. This is the best possible thing you can do for you. Period. Get your patriotic name on roll call every day first thing. Keep your word. And take your life back. 835 days I was terrified and hopeless. Today I am free. If I can help, my number is yours for the asking. Pm me. Welcome aboard. Edited by worktowin, Apr 7 2015, 11:14 PM.
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| grizzlyhasclaws | Apr 7 2015, 11:19 PM Post #3 |
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The Elusive Sasquatch
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Read everything you can here. Welcome. |
Proud FFFoQer - February 2014 ![]() Free from dog shit! ![]() ODAAT & NAFAR | |
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| hando | Apr 7 2015, 11:30 PM Post #4 |
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Perfect encouragement, brother. Thank you. I know the first few days are going to kick me in the teeth. I hate this part. Hate it. I become someone I hate. I know the fights with my wife will happen, and that's the worst. I'll sling the meanest insults and not think twice about it. I become borderline abusive with my sons and they have no idea why. I'm an outright asshole. And I hate that I'm going to knowingly do this again for the 20th time. This has to be the last time. |
| There are two kingdoms and they are at war with one another; the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of light. Unfortunately, we are born into the kingdom of darkness and Satan is the king. Satan is very crafty. He says, "You don't have to serve me, just serve yourself." But in the end, we receive darkness, death, and destruction. On the other hand, there's the kingdom of light and the King is Jesus. He came to earth and died on a cross, was buried, and rose from the dead to forgive us of our sins. If we will turn from our selfish ways, receive His forgiveness, and surrender our lives to Him as our King, He gives us light, life, and love. We live in this little bubble called life (70-80 years) and when it pops, whichever king we served is where we will spend all eternity. | |
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| grizzlyhasclaws | Apr 8 2015, 04:41 AM Post #5 |
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The Elusive Sasquatch
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Spare your wife and family. They don't deserve an ounce of your crap. You don't get to do that to them. They are precious. Be honest with them, completely open. Bring your rage here. Spend as much time as you can here if you want to save your life and spare your family. Use this as an opportunity to become a better man. Leave the lies that come with addiction behind you.
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Proud FFFoQer - February 2014 ![]() Free from dog shit! ![]() ODAAT & NAFAR | |
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| worktowin | Apr 8 2015, 06:25 AM Post #6 |
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I’m not a tow truck driver
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Completely agree. Take all of your rage out on grizzclaws! Seriously, you have my number. Call me and take it out on me. Walk out of the room, go outside, and call me. The rage will pass. This gets a lot easier in time. You can do this. You'll never have to relive day 1! |
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Quit Date 12/24/2012 HOF 4/2/2013 Comma 9/19/2015 | |
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| Thumblewort | Apr 8 2015, 08:29 AM Post #7 |
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DUCK!!!!!!!
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Come on man, post roll and be quit for today. |
| Some of my fondest and clearest memories are peeing in places that aren't bathrooms. | |
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| Rawls | Apr 8 2015, 01:51 PM Post #8 |
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In Him
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Hey HANDO..... Where did you GO? Big ol Military man, with some Church and Awanas......doesn't need a little plant to handle situations in life. You are an Addict. I Am an addict. Everyone here at KTC is an addict. ADDICTS HAVE TO HAVE ACCOUNTABILITY AND SUPPORT. YOU NEED US...AND WE NEED YOU! Nothing to be ashamed of. We can also be positive addicts to a lot of other great things that are NOT trying to kill us. Like being a Dad and husband. I sent you an Email.... lets post Roll today and get this behind us. You should be ready to Fight for Freedom... Fight for you own. Engage Maverick! Rawls 'Popcorn' |
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Just an old sinner, wanting to show another, where he can get a free meal. The Cross And a 38 year addict, wanting to show another, where he can get a free Quit. KTC Not what I should be..or could be....but better than what I used to be. I BELIEVE....... Intro HOF 100 Days/100 Words Some Truth About Nicotine Addiction | |
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| ChickDip | Apr 8 2015, 01:56 PM Post #9 |
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a.k.a. LBP
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Hando, post roll ! Quit! |
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"The load doesn't weigh me down at all... he ain't heavy, he's my brother" "Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think." "If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack ----------- "I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP | |
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| rdad | Apr 8 2015, 04:55 PM Post #10 |
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Attention all planets of the solar federation......... I have assumed control.....
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Hando man you have some of the best quitters here lined up ready to quit with you. But you have to post that promise in roll. We don't believe you are serious until we see your name there. EVERYDAY. We ALL were where you are now. We get it. You CAN do this!!!! |
| ODAAT....Learn It.....Know It.....Live It | |
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| hando | Apr 8 2015, 07:53 PM Post #11 |
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Thank you, men. Today was brutal. Today is still brutal, but I made it. Big thanks to Worktowin...funny how a complete stranger becomes your greatest defense in a single day. |
| There are two kingdoms and they are at war with one another; the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of light. Unfortunately, we are born into the kingdom of darkness and Satan is the king. Satan is very crafty. He says, "You don't have to serve me, just serve yourself." But in the end, we receive darkness, death, and destruction. On the other hand, there's the kingdom of light and the King is Jesus. He came to earth and died on a cross, was buried, and rose from the dead to forgive us of our sins. If we will turn from our selfish ways, receive His forgiveness, and surrender our lives to Him as our King, He gives us light, life, and love. We live in this little bubble called life (70-80 years) and when it pops, whichever king we served is where we will spend all eternity. | |
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| AppleJack | Apr 8 2015, 08:08 PM Post #12 |
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Rock and Roll Ain't Noise Pollution...
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To be a broken record... Your biggest defense is the accountability that is roll. It's the price of admission here bro. Trust me dude... It weirded me out too. An Internet forum is NOT my bag. However, the realization that I wasn't alone was huge. HUGE. It takes me 30 seconds and I've done it 100% for 722 days. Rock this... Jump in and run with it. |
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Day 1... 4-17-13 Well, it's one louder isn't it? It's not ten. | |
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| ChristopherJ | Apr 8 2015, 08:30 PM Post #13 |
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Don't be afraid. You are not alone.
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Come on Hando. You now need to post roll and begin the process of accountability. The brotherhood has already reached out. There are many active military and former military like you here. You are not alone. Do not be afraid. Make the commitment. Pm me if you need more numbers. CJ |
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| hando | Apr 8 2015, 08:30 PM Post #14 |
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Quit Disciple
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Spent last 30 mins trying to find my quit group and post roll. Found the jackals, but not sure which post is the latest to copy and paste. I will figure it out. |
| There are two kingdoms and they are at war with one another; the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of light. Unfortunately, we are born into the kingdom of darkness and Satan is the king. Satan is very crafty. He says, "You don't have to serve me, just serve yourself." But in the end, we receive darkness, death, and destruction. On the other hand, there's the kingdom of light and the King is Jesus. He came to earth and died on a cross, was buried, and rose from the dead to forgive us of our sins. If we will turn from our selfish ways, receive His forgiveness, and surrender our lives to Him as our King, He gives us light, life, and love. We live in this little bubble called life (70-80 years) and when it pops, whichever king we served is where we will spend all eternity. | |
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| ChristopherJ | Apr 8 2015, 08:33 PM Post #15 |
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Don't be afraid. You are not alone.
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I am lousy with conputers and someone else can help with details lFor now just click add reply and write Hondo Day 2. People will pick you up from there. |
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