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| My Introduction; Quitting | |
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| Tweet Topic Started: Dec 29 2014, 01:10 PM (2,284 Views) | |
| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 01:10 PM Post #1 |
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My name is Matthew, I am 37 years old and I have been addicted to Copenhagen since I was roughly 15 years old. I have had momentary lapses in my addiction but have never been able to put it to bed. I have 3 beautiful kids, 2 boys and 1 girl and just found out another boy on the way. Anyhow, I have plenty of reasons to want to live a long life. I guess I just never really wanted to quit for myself, when I came to that realization I guess it hit me how selfish I was being and how selfish I am with regards to keeping this habit. Then I got mad, really mad, that I (felt) like was being held hostage by this drug / chemical that I cannot get the courage/strength to stop - for good. So, I was leaving work on Christmas eve, was a little pissed that I had to rummage through my desk and find a can so Id have some for the ride home - anyhow something clicked and I tossed the can into the garbage. So I put this as my 5th or 6th day without dip. Anyhow, was having some seriously gnarly cravings as I sat down at my desk this morning (I work in Law Enforcement so its everywhere and all the garbage cans have spit in em). Anyhow, was looking (googling) stories and really just trying to get my mind off of the cravings, found this site, wasn't going to join, but figured everything I have done in the past has failed so here goes... Thanks for stopping by and reading, and giving me a place to vent, I feel better already. |
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| Idaho Spuds | Dec 29 2014, 01:25 PM Post #2 |
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Matthew, Congratulations on the new addition to your family! And congratulations on your decision to quit and give your family the best Christmas present We are all addicts here and the can has been controlling our lives and stealing it away from loved ones. Your story is like a lot of folks on here (and we have a good number of law enforcement quitters). Read up on the site, posting roll is the key to success and the back bone of the site. This is your first and last quit, but you have to invest in it! Message me for my cell number and we can text when you get tough cravings, Idaho Spuds |
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“If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin'.” -- Anonymous Yesterday +1 November 2014 Quit Group My Intro | |
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| copingwithoutcopen | Dec 29 2014, 01:52 PM Post #3 |
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E Pluribus Unum
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You might not be here by accident. Get yourself on roll! 28 year user here and 925 days of unbroken promises. Posting up's been the ONLY thing that's ever stuck. Posting our promise prevents us from being another statistic, taking it off the table every day. Welcome and thanks for your service, tough time to be a cop. |
| happier, healthier, wealthier and wiser thanks to all of you | |
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| soxfnnlansing | Dec 29 2014, 01:59 PM Post #4 |
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162 days quit today
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Come quit with us. After 5-6 days quit, you will be needing support because it's all mental now. Your brain needs to learn how to function without nicotine in the drivers seat. Once you are part of something larger than you and your quit, you will feel a sense of accountability. Trust me, it works. I'm 119 days quit and I was the guy that would never quit. My family loves my quit, but I love it more than they possibly could. God bless all the cops. soxffn |
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HOF Speech Here in THIS house, we Kill the Can. If it's not a top priority, go to one of the bitch sites where they "hurt the can" or "call the can names." - Pre This is so much more that just throwing your name on a list, it is placing your word or promise that you will not use nicotine and it should be done everyday. - MCarmo44 I need this place, because i am an addict. I cannot forget that...if i do i will forget how to quit. - Schaef418 | |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 04:01 PM Post #5 |
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Thanks! I am navigating this site in between catching up on work/emails and the information here is tremendous, seems like a lot of good dudes. I plan on posting in the April section after I familiarize myself with the workings of this site a little bit more. |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 04:04 PM Post #6 |
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Yes I was reading in the April section and plan on posting there, my ass better be ready - there is no quarter given in there. It's pretty brutal I have to take a stand though and I believe this will work. Thanks for your response. Matt |
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| NoMoreCopeBlack | Dec 29 2014, 04:56 PM Post #7 |
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Post that roll, brother. The brutality is generally reserved for liars and cavers, you have a clean slate. Jump in and post roll and brutally say FUCK YOU to all forms of nicotine delivery and that motherfucker Marty Barrington. |
| Post roll, don't dip. Have to admit, that part was fucking easy this last 123 days. I had no epiphany or grand revelation about quitting, no medical event, no life changes. I knew plenty about nicotine and quitting already before I came here, I knew dipping was the wrong thing and I kept doing it on purpose (for a while I would even say, "Hail, Satan!" when I bought a can - let's be honest about what deliberate evil really is). There was nothing special about 6 Oct 2014, except that I committed to quitting, all the way, in the KTC quit vehicle, with quitters who would never accept the bullshit that I accepted from myself. Like I said, I knew SO MUCH about quitting already; Quitting for me has a lot to do with internal dialogue and narrative. "I" dip - WTF? Cravings - I have none. As a quitter, thoughts about dipping are not my thoughts. When you hear, "Ba dah bop ba bah," is, "I'm lovin' it," your thought? No. Recognizing and reconditioning dipper thoughts is so fucking easy in a place like KTC. Think of the saying, "Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." What source flows into the heart to fill it to abundance? Sense data, interpreted/associated sense data, stories about identity from the internal narrative, entrainment to those like-hearted, and your own speech feeds back. I am quit. I am quit and I quit forever, today, whatever it takes, no excuses ever, with the SHELL and Mayhem. | |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 05:10 PM Post #8 |
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Posted - I think I did it correctly. Thanks. One question though; I am to log in every day until my 100 days and post just as I did? with an updated day count and reaffirmation of my commitment to quitting? |
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| NoMoreCopeBlack | Dec 29 2014, 05:25 PM Post #9 |
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Yes, you posted clean. Yes, log in every day as early as possible and commit to quitting for the current day. Day 100 will take care of itself on day 100. You are welcome to post in any and all quit groups; it is customary to post roll in a group before joining in any discussions. Get some phone numbers from the Apes so you have a backup for roll and a lifeline for cave prevention. |
| Post roll, don't dip. Have to admit, that part was fucking easy this last 123 days. I had no epiphany or grand revelation about quitting, no medical event, no life changes. I knew plenty about nicotine and quitting already before I came here, I knew dipping was the wrong thing and I kept doing it on purpose (for a while I would even say, "Hail, Satan!" when I bought a can - let's be honest about what deliberate evil really is). There was nothing special about 6 Oct 2014, except that I committed to quitting, all the way, in the KTC quit vehicle, with quitters who would never accept the bullshit that I accepted from myself. Like I said, I knew SO MUCH about quitting already; Quitting for me has a lot to do with internal dialogue and narrative. "I" dip - WTF? Cravings - I have none. As a quitter, thoughts about dipping are not my thoughts. When you hear, "Ba dah bop ba bah," is, "I'm lovin' it," your thought? No. Recognizing and reconditioning dipper thoughts is so fucking easy in a place like KTC. Think of the saying, "Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." What source flows into the heart to fill it to abundance? Sense data, interpreted/associated sense data, stories about identity from the internal narrative, entrainment to those like-hearted, and your own speech feeds back. I am quit. I am quit and I quit forever, today, whatever it takes, no excuses ever, with the SHELL and Mayhem. | |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 05:59 PM Post #10 |
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Rgr. thanks. |
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| Steakbomb18 | Dec 29 2014, 09:15 PM Post #11 |
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You should just put the period after the "quit for myself." In order for this to work, there is only one person you need to quit for. You. This has to be selfish and you shouldn't feel bad about it. Look at it this way, if you want to be there for those kids, if you want to enjoy this family you have built, then YOU need to quit for YOU. Not them. They will reap the benefits of you quitting for you and being around for them. I know...it sounds backwards, but it's not. Too often have we "tried" to quit for someone only to fail. Here we don't try to quit we quit and we do it for ourselves. Every successful badass on this site is quitting for themselves. In time, the quit grows into many things, but for now, just focus on you. |
| HOF: 3/21/2014 | |
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| worktowin | Dec 29 2014, 09:44 PM Post #12 |
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I’m not a tow truck driver
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There is no better gift for you to give to yourself or your family than this quit. You will and have received some kick ass advice... Here is mine... Right now, take all that you can from this site and its members. Read and listen, and most importantly post roll first thing every day. Do it the second your eyes open. It is clear from reading your intro that you are a man of your word, and posting roll and maintaining your integrity will keep you on the path, one day at a time, to a much easier drive on the quit highway. Once you get stronger, and you will, switch from taking to giving. Reach out to some newer quitters and feed them some of the strength that you will have achieved. You won't believe how much this will help you, and others. From one Christmas Eve quitter (2012) to another... Get ready to enjoy the happiest new year you've had in a long time. You are really gonna like the new you. If I can help or if you need another contact - send me a pm. Proud to quit with you today! |
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Quit Date 12/24/2012 HOF 4/2/2013 Comma 9/19/2015 | |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 10:17 PM Post #13 |
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Steak and Work to Win - You both had very poignant and helpful posts- And yes I agree wholeheartedly - like i have said on here before, i always lose things in translation from my brain to finger tips - when it comes to what is in my brain and what i write out. I meant to write/imply/relay; I want (and have wanted) to quit and all attempts at trying to quit before failed because they were for other people. Where as the reason I kept my habit was purely selfish because I enjoyed and loved it. I am embarrassed to say that a majority of days it was the one thing I looked forward to every morning/evening and all the time in-between (if thats not selfish i don't know what is). It took me from my family in little snips of time / energy / and resources. I never viewed the can "Kicking" or "killing" as selfish (only selfish to keep it) - but that does put it into a different perspective for me, shift the paradigm so to speak... Yeah man its a wicked habit - I hate it - i want to live, I don't want die. Yeah I can be selfish in that regard. Hopefully i don't add more confusion to my ramblings with that. Thanks for your reply you guys are awesome! |
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| Wt57 | Dec 29 2014, 10:24 PM Post #14 |
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You have the attitude that is needed and are off to a great start. Don't worry about any day but today. Looking beyond the present leads to failure. It will suck until it doesn't. |
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4/1/2012: Nicotine Quit Date 7/9/12: HOF The Missing Warning Label TODAY is the day that counts "Do, or do not, there is no try." Yoda | |
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| BAMF | Dec 29 2014, 10:42 PM Post #15 |
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"It will suck until it doesn't." Awesome! - love it. I think that sentence describes exactly what it means to quit (or at least a good summation of the physical/mental process). Thanks for the words man - it is appreciated. Matt |
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