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Mark4; Take 2
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Topic Started: Mar 11 2014, 04:27 PM (2,887 Views)
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tarpon17
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Dec 30 2014, 12:09 PM
Post #91
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Do or Do Not There is no Try
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- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
I'll quit with you any damn day!
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HOF Date 12.30.2010
The only way to really fuck up roll is to not be on it. Redyota
quieti sicut irrumabo
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grizzlyhasclaws
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Dec 30 2014, 12:16 PM
Post #92
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- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.
Proud of you.
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Proud FFFoQer - February 2014 
Free from dog shit! 
ODAAT & NAFAR
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Bronc
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Dec 30 2014, 12:38 PM
Post #93
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Where all da white women at?
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- grizzlyhasclaws
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- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine. Proud of you. Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.
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"This is not a try and try again system." ~ Duathman “Until you want to quit as badly as you wanted to breathe, you’ll never be successful. It has to be the single most important thing in your life to the exclusion of all other distractions. When you can achieve that, you will not only be quit, you will remain quit.” “If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin.” - Ivan Turgenev
Quit Date: 3/14/2014 HOF Group: June 2014 Quitters I've met in person: BBJ, AppleJacks, BretLees, Zeno, ZillahCowboy, Sixer, SirDerek, 2mch2lv4, Mike McCarmo44, Luby, Rocketman, Keddy, dforbes, kdip, theo3wood, Sporticus, MonsterEMT, Sam83, BaitBanjo, Boelker63, Scowick, Hydro, LancefromSD, BigWhiteBeast, Chewie, TCope, MN_Ben, RC, Cbird, TXTaco1, QuitSpit, Cavman, BTDogboy, CLampy, ChrisTKE, Basshaug, THansen, Greenspidey, Cmark, 30YrAddict, Wastepanel, E&CsDad, Franpro Introduction:
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Jake_M
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Dec 30 2014, 02:36 PM
Post #94
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If you want peace, Prepare for war.
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- Bronc
- Dec 30 2014, 12:38 PM
- grizzlyhasclaws
- Dec 30 2014, 12:16 PM
- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine. Proud of you.
Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there. My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.
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If you want peace, prepare for war. Be very careful to not leave any sliver of a crack in any of your doors. The nic bitch will find it. Every person here needs to slam the door shut, then nail it closed, then cement over the door. - Basshaug Caving is not ONE bad moment or ONE bad decision. That's a full on PROCESS of ignoring every tool you've acquired on this site, and a conscious cycle of events where you say fuck off brotherhood, fuck off accountability, fuck off ktc, and fuck off ME. -Diesel2112
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NoMoreCopeBlack
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Dec 30 2014, 02:53 PM
Post #95
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- Jake_M
- Dec 30 2014, 02:36 PM
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- grizzlyhasclaws
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- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine. Proud of you.
Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.
My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave. Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that.
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Post roll, don't dip. Have to admit, that part was fucking easy this last 123 days. I had no epiphany or grand revelation about quitting, no medical event, no life changes. I knew plenty about nicotine and quitting already before I came here, I knew dipping was the wrong thing and I kept doing it on purpose (for a while I would even say, "Hail, Satan!" when I bought a can - let's be honest about what deliberate evil really is). There was nothing special about 6 Oct 2014, except that I committed to quitting, all the way, in the KTC quit vehicle, with quitters who would never accept the bullshit that I accepted from myself. Like I said, I knew SO MUCH about quitting already; Quitting for me has a lot to do with internal dialogue and narrative. "I" dip - WTF? Cravings - I have none. As a quitter, thoughts about dipping are not my thoughts. When you hear, "Ba dah bop ba bah," is, "I'm lovin' it," your thought? No. Recognizing and reconditioning dipper thoughts is so fucking easy in a place like KTC. Think of the saying, "Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." What source flows into the heart to fill it to abundance? Sense data, interpreted/associated sense data, stories about identity from the internal narrative, entrainment to those like-hearted, and your own speech feeds back. I am quit. I am quit and I quit forever, today, whatever it takes, no excuses ever, with the SHELL and Mayhem.
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Mark4
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Dec 30 2014, 06:37 PM
Post #96
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- NoMoreCopeBlack
- Dec 30 2014, 02:53 PM
- Jake_M
- Dec 30 2014, 02:36 PM
- Bronc
- Dec 30 2014, 12:38 PM
- grizzlyhasclaws
- Dec 30 2014, 12:16 PM
- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine. Proud of you.
Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.
My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.
Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that. Nope no going back. I chose freedom and recovery verses being kicked around by a tin or life.
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30isEnuff
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Dec 31 2014, 11:51 AM
Post #97
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- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 06:37 PM
- NoMoreCopeBlack
- Dec 30 2014, 02:53 PM
- Jake_M
- Dec 30 2014, 02:36 PM
- Bronc
- Dec 30 2014, 12:38 PM
- grizzlyhasclaws
- Dec 30 2014, 12:16 PM
- Mark4
- Dec 30 2014, 12:04 PM
Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.
Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.
But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.
Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.
There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.
You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine. Proud of you.
Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.
My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.
Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that.
Nope no going back. I chose freedom and recovery verses being kicked around by a tin or life. When the quit gets tough, keep on quitting! ODAAT and NAFAR, period
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I also have this confidence that since I did this, I can do anything -mcarmo44
Caving is NOT an option. ~KTC Quitter
The Guys @ KTC may not be the cream of the crop of Mental Health... But if you wanna quit NIC for good and all ... these crazy bastards are all the support you will ever need!! - cmark
-'Stop being a pussy and quit' Tarpon17
Keeping my jaw and tongue, I like them. ~30isEnuff
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Mark4
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Jan 8 2015, 12:18 PM
Post #98
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Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.
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Jan 8 2015, 06:30 PM
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Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year. Keep bringing this !!!!
Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said
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Jan 9 2015, 10:10 AM
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- Jan 8 2015, 12:18 PM
Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.
Keep bringing this !!!! Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said Nice post.
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Jan 9 2015, 12:34 PM
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- Scowick65
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- CBird65
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- Mark4
- Jan 8 2015, 12:18 PM
Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.
Keep bringing this !!!! Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said
Nice post. Thank you for sharing your journey, quit with you.
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Jan 12 2015, 01:02 AM
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- lours
- Jan 9 2015, 12:34 PM
- Scowick65
- Jan 9 2015, 10:10 AM
- CBird65
- Jan 8 2015, 06:30 PM
- Mark4
- Jan 8 2015, 12:18 PM
Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.
Keep bringing this !!!! Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said
Nice post.
Thank you for sharing your journey, quit with you. You are amazing. Taking life's struggles and making some lemonade.
Proud to be quit with you.
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Jan 12 2015, 10:51 AM
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Two quit days behind Mr. Horny
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- lours
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- Scowick65
- Jan 9 2015, 10:10 AM
- CBird65
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- Mark4
- Jan 8 2015, 12:18 PM
Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.
But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.
As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.
Keep bringing this !!!! Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said
Nice post.
Thank you for sharing your journey, quit with you.
You are amazing. Taking life's struggles and making some lemonade. Proud to be quit with you. You’re a strong and resilient man. No doubt when you come out the other side of these challenges you will find yourself back on top.
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Jan 21 2015, 10:03 AM
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Day 98. Perhaps the most bizarre thing about my quit journey is about 2 weeks ago, I began to see that my life was going to change by Friday, January 23. Thats because things would be upon me that would force my permanent exit from business and I'd be forced to "go get a job". Getting a job would involve putting my company and me personally into bankruptcy - the final straw or loss I have been fighting. There were several rather big things that would need to take place to avoid that fate and for me to relaunch the business, some so big I simply do not control them, so it was just a matter of time to see, and that time runs out this week.
Since I last posted I've been back in the ER for even more drama and have yet another surgery tomorrow. I look in the mirror and think, if I didn't have bad luck, I wouldn't have any luck at all! I feared that being drugged out on pain meds AGAIN was going to kill any chance of me rebuilding the business and the unwanted defaulting was all but inevitable. I even looked sadly at my approaching 100 days as the only good thing left that I had going.
So these past 2 weeks I've been watching as amazing things have happened. It turns out tomorrow's surgery will actually be the end to this medical mess FINALLY. It will be O.V.E.R. And I am starting to see some of those big things happen and come to life. It's hard to say or believe, but I am now feverishly preparing to relaunch my company with a new investor and some great new potential. Could this really all be wrapping up at the same time, at 100 days? I understand quitting is a lifelong thing, and so is the rest of the my life, but I'm curious to see if this particular journey does come to a head at the time I hit HoF. Talk about coincidences...
I'll NEVER forget these 100 days.
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Jan 21 2015, 11:56 AM
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Attention all planets of the solar federation......... I have assumed control.....
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That is all great news! Thanks for the update. Reaching the HOF is the first big milestone. Congrats.
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