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Dammit I'm Done; Quit Day #1
Topic Started: Oct 20 2014, 05:48 PM (1,359 Views)
Dirk
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Hello all, I'm Dirk. Been on the can for 21 years. Longest stint without it was a few days 2 years ago while I was hospitalized. I've got a toddler at home and a new one on the way and have been toying with the idea of a "quit date" and "slowing down", but after finding this site today, I realize how much of a pussy I've been. I'm fucking done, two cans of Cope in the garbage. I never thought this day would come and it probably never would have. After reading the "Contract to give up" and balling like a baby after reading Tom and Jenny's story, it was time to nut up. I've got a serious trigger approaching in November with the start of our duck hunting season, so I'm preparing for it now and looking forward to not picking Copenhagen grains out of a stuck call reed. Thank you in advance for your support. Do I Post Roll now or after I've been one full day without the junk.
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starr_78
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Brother it is good to have you aboard and good to see that you understand the seriousness of quitting. Get straight to posting roll ASAP. You have flushed your stash and now you are ready to get to quitting. Keep close to this site and read like you already have been reading. It will cement your reason for coming here. Quit everyday and post roll every day. We don't take time off for posting because nicotine doesn't stop driving us crazy with head games. You can do this! If you need anything at all reach out to a fellow quitter. We have all been here before and understand exactly what you need.
1 Problem + Nicotine = 2 Problems

It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you don't quit. ~Confucius~

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the 2nd best time is now ~Chinese Proverb~


HOF Speech

Introduction Page

Quit Date: 12/10/13

HOF Date: 3/20/14 March Iron Men
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grizzlyhasclaws
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Flush those can contents and rinse them out then throw then out. Eliminate dumpster diving from the possibilities tonight.

Welcome.
'FU' Proud FFFoQer - February 2014 'FU'

'FU' Free from dog shit! 'FU'

ODAAT & NAFAR
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Dirk
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grizzlyhasclaws
Oct 20 2014, 06:08 PM
Flush those can contents and rinse them out then throw then out. Eliminate dumpster diving from the possibilities tonight.

Welcome.
They are in my garbage can at work, I'm already commuting. The janitor will make sure their fate is met tonight.
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Dirk
Oct 20 2014, 06:24 PM
grizzlyhasclaws
Oct 20 2014, 06:08 PM
Flush those can contents and rinse them out then throw then out. Eliminate dumpster diving from the possibilities tonight.

Welcome.
They are in my garbage can at work, I'm already commuting. The janitor will make sure their fate is met tonight.
Great. You can do this. The next few days will totally suck. Just read as much as you can here on KTC and get involved with your quit group. Get some sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs. Chug a shit ton of water too. Read read read.
'FU' Proud FFFoQer - February 2014 'FU'

'FU' Free from dog shit! 'FU'

ODAAT & NAFAR
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Sir Nopenhagen
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Best decision you could have made. Post roll today,this is your day one. You will be in the January 2015 quit group and there are a bunch of bad ass quitters over there. Check your pm box I sent you one. This will be my first duck season copenhagen free in 25 years. We can get through it and I bet it's your best season ever. Proud to quit with you today.

Sir Nope
Edited by Sir Nopenhagen, Oct 20 2014, 06:43 PM.
HOF speech
My Intro

Quit is not just using nicotine. It's pursuing not using nicotine. It's planning to be quit. It's acting the quit. Be there for your brothers and have mercy on them. They are struggling like you, and right now...they could use a friend. But don't for one damn second let up on their asses. You need them here to watch you. I need you here to watch me.
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NoMoreCopeBlack
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Welcome, genius. I quit with you in Jan 15.
Post roll, don't dip. Have to admit, that part was fucking easy this last 123 days. I had no epiphany or grand revelation about quitting, no medical event, no life changes. I knew plenty about nicotine and quitting already before I came here, I knew dipping was the wrong thing and I kept doing it on purpose (for a while I would even say, "Hail, Satan!" when I bought a can - let's be honest about what deliberate evil really is). There was nothing special about 6 Oct 2014, except that I committed to quitting, all the way, in the KTC quit vehicle, with quitters who would never accept the bullshit that I accepted from myself. Like I said, I knew SO MUCH about quitting already; Quitting for me has a lot to do with internal dialogue and narrative. "I" dip - WTF? Cravings - I have none. As a quitter, thoughts about dipping are not my thoughts. When you hear, "Ba dah bop ba bah," is, "I'm lovin' it," your thought? No. Recognizing and reconditioning dipper thoughts is so fucking easy in a place like KTC. Think of the saying, "Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." What source flows into the heart to fill it to abundance? Sense data, interpreted/associated sense data, stories about identity from the internal narrative, entrainment to those like-hearted, and your own speech feeds back. I am quit. I am quit and I quit forever, today, whatever it takes, no excuses ever, with the SHELL and Mayhem.
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Steakbomb18
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Albeit brief, that was a great intro. To the point, badass, and a show of humility. A couple of pieces of advice; you post roll and you are quit. There is no preparing or ramp up - you post roll and make the promise to not use nicotine for that day; then you are quit. Every time you "quit" and start again, you're not really quitting; you're just stopping. Quitting is a daily act; one you must actively perform because you'll forever be an addict. Reason I describe quitting this way for you is because this is the mentality you will need for duck hunting. Not the mentality of I haven't used for the past 30 days (which helps), but rather; I am quit, I posted roll, and I WILL NOT USE NICOTINE TODAY.

The other thing is build an accountability network. Don't find yourself in a duck hunting group of friends who are drinking and dipping without a lifeline to call/text to hold you accountable to your word. All of us successful quitters have networks. People we communicate with every day. This is how we can help you; and in time you will reciprocate that help but for now worry about you. Post roll and build that accountability.

Check your in-box, you'll find your first life-line
Edited by Steakbomb18, Oct 21 2014, 06:56 AM.
HOF: 3/21/2014
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Zam
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I'm excited for you...you're about to start learning the details of just how much the nic bitch was pulling your strings. Honestly, you may think you know, but you don't. If you put in the effort to stay quit and the effort to understand what nicotine is about and how it effects you...well..getting through each day will become much easier. You will not believe the shit you did last week in order to further your addiction.

Congrats on a great decision, and on the start of a new path.
I'm a BoMB!, HOF May2012
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Dirk
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Thanks for the support gents. Me and the misses got into it and I wanted to cave like a mutha fahka last night, but didn't. Woke up this morning and quit again. I did dream about it and it was the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. The fight continues.
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Dirk
Oct 21 2014, 09:38 AM
Thanks for the support gents. Me and the misses got into it and I wanted to cave like a mutha fahka last night, but didn't. Woke up this morning and quit again. I did dream about it and it was the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. The fight continues.
Hell yes!
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR, period
You're not here by accident. This site saved my life, because I allowed it to.
Post Roll
honor your word
wake and repeat
I'm doing it, you can to.
I quit with You Today!
Cheers.
I also have this confidence that since I did this, I can do anything -mcarmo44

Caving is NOT an option. ~KTC Quitter

The Guys @ KTC may not be the cream of the crop of Mental Health... But if you wanna quit NIC for good and all ... these crazy bastards are all the support you will ever need!! - cmark

-'Stop being a pussy and quit' Tarpon17

Keeping my jaw and tongue, I like them. ~30isEnuff
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Frosty179
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you got this brother just keep posting roll with me and all the other January 2015 quitters and you got this in the bag, its all in your head show the nic bitch that you are stronger than it. Also get some numbers and text others
Life free...or die
January 15 class
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Dirk
Oct 21 2014, 09:38 AM
Thanks for the support gents. Me and the misses got into it and I wanted to cave like a mutha fahka last night, but didn't. Woke up this morning and quit again. I did dream about it and it was the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. The fight continues.
I blamed a cave last year on the old lady. Never would have happened if I was on KTC then and already promised my quit brothers and sisters not to dip that day. It's the same old story almost every day now but my quit just gets stronger.
Post roll, don't dip. Have to admit, that part was fucking easy this last 123 days. I had no epiphany or grand revelation about quitting, no medical event, no life changes. I knew plenty about nicotine and quitting already before I came here, I knew dipping was the wrong thing and I kept doing it on purpose (for a while I would even say, "Hail, Satan!" when I bought a can - let's be honest about what deliberate evil really is). There was nothing special about 6 Oct 2014, except that I committed to quitting, all the way, in the KTC quit vehicle, with quitters who would never accept the bullshit that I accepted from myself. Like I said, I knew SO MUCH about quitting already; Quitting for me has a lot to do with internal dialogue and narrative. "I" dip - WTF? Cravings - I have none. As a quitter, thoughts about dipping are not my thoughts. When you hear, "Ba dah bop ba bah," is, "I'm lovin' it," your thought? No. Recognizing and reconditioning dipper thoughts is so fucking easy in a place like KTC. Think of the saying, "Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." What source flows into the heart to fill it to abundance? Sense data, interpreted/associated sense data, stories about identity from the internal narrative, entrainment to those like-hearted, and your own speech feeds back. I am quit. I am quit and I quit forever, today, whatever it takes, no excuses ever, with the SHELL and Mayhem.
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Oct 21 2014, 10:55 AM
Dirk
Oct 21 2014, 09:38 AM
Thanks for the support gents. Me and the misses got into it and I wanted to cave like a mutha fahka last night, but didn't. Woke up this morning and quit again. I did dream about it and it was the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. The fight continues.
I blamed a cave last year on the old lady. Never would have happened if I was on KTC then and already promised my quit brothers and sisters not to dip that day. It's the same old story almost every day now but my quit just gets stronger.

+ this a million times. I got into fights with the wife early in my quit and you tell yourself, "she's making me want to cave". Fact is she isn't - it's the nicotine addiction speaking and it is desparately trying to come up with ANYTHING to get it's nicotine fix. Recognize it for what it is and you will be stronger for it.

I was a similar situation to you - dipped 22 years and I have 2 young kids. Just follow the program here, get involved and you can have your freedom back. How many times have you not spent time with your child to go off and dip? We've all done it and let me tell you the FREEDOM from not having nicotine run your life is worth it.
Edited by lighty7, Oct 21 2014, 11:12 AM.
My HOF Speech


"Ah yes. The Kodiak bear. For 15 years I used to hump that fucking bear. Near the end I was going through 2 cans a day. Fuck that asshole bear. I don't own a gun and i've never been to Alaska but if I ever end up there I will kill one of those mother fuckers. Gun or no gun. Ill rain blows upon his face and drop kick him in the dick if he stands up." - Diesel2112

"A book came out that I had been waiting a long time to read. That was my kryptonite, dipping and reading." -- Retread Caver (via Krusty)

"By no means am I "cured". I don't think I will ever be cured. That's a word for ham." - BoomerSooner007
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lighty7
Oct 21 2014, 11:12 AM
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Oct 21 2014, 10:55 AM
Dirk
Oct 21 2014, 09:38 AM
Thanks for the support gents. Me and the misses got into it and I wanted to cave like a mutha fahka last night, but didn't. Woke up this morning and quit again. I did dream about it and it was the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. The fight continues.
I blamed a cave last year on the old lady. Never would have happened if I was on KTC then and already promised my quit brothers and sisters not to dip that day. It's the same old story almost every day now but my quit just gets stronger.

+ this a million times. I got into fights with the wife early in my quit and you tell yourself, "she's making me want to cave". Fact is she isn't - it's the nicotine addiction speaking and it is desparately trying to come up with ANYTHING to get it's nicotine fix. Recognize it for what it is and you will be stronger for it.

I was a similar situation to you - dipped 22 years and I have 2 young kids. Just follow the program here, get involved and you can have your freedom back. How many times have you not spent time with your child to go off and dip? We've all done it and let me tell you the FREEDOM from not having nicotine run your life is worth it.
My wife God bless her is a saint because she lived through A-marrying me, B-my addiction and C-my quit. I was a complete asshole not only in quit but not the role model husband. However with her support I was able to quit. Have you shown her the Spousal Support section of the KTC website yet? Have you read that yet?

It helps to have her in your corner and it helps her understand why you are being a dick if she knows this. Just remember that she didn't make you become an addict and the Nic Bitch is not worth ruining a perfectly good marriage.

Keep on fighting and be ready for anything.

>P<
"If you want to quit then stop talking and just QUIT. If you want to kill yourself a bullet is cheaper and faster than a tin, plus it eliminates my hearing you whine and cry like a bitch."

Best thing I have read on KTC...Submitted by tgafish on 7/3/14

Former Skoal Straight and Cope Longcut user that started at the age of 12. QUIT on 7/15/13
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