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Finally quitting - for good; I hope
Topic Started: Oct 10 2014, 08:56 PM (1,903 Views)
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m5shelly
Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.

I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.

I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.

I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.

Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!

So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.

Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.

I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.

Quit with you today.

30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.

We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
Quit date: 6/23/2013
HOF Date: 9/30/2013

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Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.

I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.

I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.

I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.

Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!

So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.

Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.

I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.

Quit with you today.

30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.

We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.

So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
HOF: 3/21/2014
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Dec 2 2014, 12:18 AM
m5shelly
Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.

I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.

I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.

I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.

Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!

So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.

Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.

I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.

Quit with you today.

30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.

We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.

So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.

Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
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Dec 2 2014, 12:57 PM
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Dec 2 2014, 12:43 PM
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Dec 2 2014, 12:18 AM
m5shelly
Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.

I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.

I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.

I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.

Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!

So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.

Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.

I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.

Quit with you today.

30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.

We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.

So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.

Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
Thanks to all for your fantastic words of wisdom. Those morals could only have been learned by you guys, who are much further in your quit.

I have already changed my attitude a little since that 50- day post. It's been like a roller coaster in some ways, going from the highs of seeing my quit as tough, and never failing, but also hitting the lows I see in that post, like why in the hell do I care, and/or when is this going to get easier.

It's difficult to tell now, but I am getting an inkling that the highs are, and will become more frequent and last longer, and the lows become fewer and further between.

Thanks to all the supporters here. You really do make a big difference! To me at least.
Edited by m5shelly, Dec 7 2014, 10:35 PM.
I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'!
Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.

I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.

I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.

I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.

Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!

So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.

Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.

I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.

Quit with you today.

30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.

We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.

So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.

Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
Thanks to all for your fantastic words of wisdom. Those morals could only have been learned by you guys, who are much further in your quit.

I have already changed my attitude a little since that 50- day post. It's been like a roller coaster in some ways, going from the highs of seeing my quit as tough, and never failing, but also hitting the lows I see in that post, like why in the hell do I care, and/or when is this going to get easier.

It's difficult to tell now, but I am getting an inkling that the highs are, and will become more frequent and last longer, and the lows become fewer and further between.

Thanks to all the supporters here. You really do make a big difference! To me at least.
Hey 5shmelly! Just keep doing what you are doing. You are winning and developing a rock solid quit. You got some great advice just don't give Twart your digits.
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
100 days! Congrats, That's huge!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
100 days! Congrats, That's huge!
Congratulation shelly! Now shoot for the 1000!
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