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Finally quitting - for good; I hope
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Topic Started: Oct 10 2014, 08:56 PM (1,905 Views)
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Jenahen
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Oct 23 2014, 09:38 PM
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- Ginet
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- m5shelly
- Oct 23 2014, 08:21 PM
OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl! Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth! Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip. Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do. It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving. # Nasty spitters in the car - 0 # of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0 # of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0 # of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0 # of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0 # of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0 # of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0 # of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0 The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always. ^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us.
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Oct 23 2014, 10:45 PM
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- Jenahen
- Oct 23 2014, 09:38 PM
- Steakbomb18
- Oct 23 2014, 09:29 PM
- Ginet
- Oct 23 2014, 09:01 PM
- m5shelly
- Oct 23 2014, 08:21 PM
OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl! Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth! Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip. Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do. It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving. # Nasty spitters in the car - 0 # of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0 # of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0 # of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0 # of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0 # of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0 # of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0 # of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0 The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us. Two weeks...... Oh yea your winning one second, minute, hour, day, at a time. It gets better dear, it gets better each and every time time you win! I am on day 542 and I dipped for over 20 years over a can a day. If I can,,,, you can. Quit with you!!
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Diesel2112
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Oct 24 2014, 01:42 AM
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- m5shelly
- Oct 23 2014, 08:21 PM
OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl! Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth! Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip. Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do. It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving. # Nasty spitters in the car - 0 # of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0 # of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0 # of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0 # of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0 # of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0 # of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0 # of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0 The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us.
Two weeks...... Oh yea your winning one second, minute, hour, day, at a time. It gets better dear, it gets better each and every time time you win! I am on day 542 and I dipped for over 20 years over a can a day. If I can,,,, you can. Quit with you!! Of course it gets better. If it didn't I sure as hell wouldn't be here still
Used to hate it when people would tell me that...
"Hang in there Diesel. Things are going to get better, I promise!"
FUCK YOU ASSHOLE, TELL ME WHEN!!!!! IM FUCKING DIEING HERE!!!!!!
I had ZERO patience, yet here I am 872 days layer. I often used to think, "How the hell did I pull this off????"
For a long time I couldn't answer that questio. Then one day it hit me. I stayed quit because I really REALLY wanted to. Goofy part was I didn't even realize it at the time. I thought I was depriving myself of something, when really I was setting myself free. I was a prisoner so damn long, I forgot what freedom even felt like. I thought I was fighting myself, but really I was fighting FOR myself. It's one of those things that you don't realize until you get some distance from your initial struggles and are able to look back and make some sense of exactly what the hell happened. I really wanted this. I'm not only thankful that I did, but also for the fact that I didn't have to do it alone. People here helped me walk this journey. It's a pretty powerful combo. You need to stick around and find out just how powrful it can be.
If you really want something bad enough, you can do ANYTHING. Even if it sucks a fat one in the beginning.
Hang tough and stay involved.
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Oct 24 2014, 01:21 PM
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Shelly,
I just had a pretty serious craving on my way to the office. The car has always been my worst trigger. Well, I just got a new set of shoes for my 540i so when I was getting onto the long winding on ramp to I-75 I exercised my right to accelerate to highway speed in an appropriate timeframe, in this case, somewhere around 5.8 Seconds. Ahh, what a way to stop a crave.
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m5shelly
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Oct 29 2014, 08:54 PM
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Thanks for the support everyone! I really had a tough time last week.
This week is definitely easier. I still have a rough time in the car, like most others here, but that is getting a bit easier too.
Like you hubbie, I just installed new CPSs on Bank 1 of my baby last Sunday. Wow! I think I gained about 20 extra HP! I had a CEL on for the last few months. I finally addressed it, and I'm happy driving. The car's computer claims I have increased the mileage by 3MPG also!
I also had an e39 540i, before I bought my M5. My 540i was the M5-lite, with the high performance package, 6-speed manual, etc. I ended up giving the car to my husband, after I wrecked the engine :(
I was exiting the freeway onto an offramp, and I mistakenly down-shifted from 6th gear, to 3rd; ouch! Bent all the valves. He's a mechanic, so he replaced the engine with a used one, and drives the car now. Matching black Bimmers.
I am dreading the day, coming soon, that I have to put the M5 in storage for the winter.
I have been using less of the fake pouches this week. I have been chewing more gum. So much so, that my jaw is getting sore by the end of the day! I have also has problems biting the inside of my lip, and cheeks while frantically chewing gum too. Better than nic pouches though.
I am buying 80-pack bags of gum. Much cheaper than nic. And, not embarrassing to purchase!
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I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'! Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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m5shelly
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Nov 21 2014, 10:20 PM
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to my quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now.
Edited by m5shelly, Nov 21 2014, 10:24 PM.
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I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'! Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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Nov 21 2014, 10:27 PM
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to me quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now. My recommendation... Don't sit around all weekend thinking about all this. Get out and enjoy the weekend! Go for a walk, enjoy the outdoors, or do something indoors. You can do whatever you like. You are a free women. You can do this. You have done it the past 42 days. Stay with the plan. Quit with you today.
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Nov 22 2014, 01:02 AM
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to me quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now.
My recommendation... Don't sit around all weekend thinking about all this. Get out and enjoy the weekend! Go for a walk, enjoy the outdoors, or do something indoors. You can do whatever you like. You are a free women. You can do this. You have done it the past 42 days. Stay with the plan. Quit with you today. I could use some help replacing the head gaskets on my son's 4runner. Come on down to NC and we'll show you how pork is done!
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m5shelly
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Nov 22 2014, 04:31 PM
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was >10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Edited by m5shelly, Nov 22 2014, 04:32 PM.
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I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'! Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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Nov 22 2014, 07:46 PM
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was >10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys! Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long!
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Nov 23 2014, 10:54 PM
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was >10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long! That procedure ruled! My hubby just returned with his prize, 10-pt buck. I stayed on this site all weekend, and participated in live chat more than ever before. I didn't leave the house at all, besides to walk the dogs, therefore I didn't get near any convenience stores to tempt me.
Thanks to all who were there to talk to and provide advice! Without you guys, I'd still be owned by tins of nic. You're awesome!
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I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'! Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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Nov 24 2014, 09:12 AM
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was >10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long!
That procedure ruled! My hubby just returned with his prize, 10-pt buck. I stayed on this site all weekend, and participated in live chat more than ever before. I didn't leave the house at all, besides to walk the dogs, therefore I didn't get near any convenience stores to tempt me. Thanks to all who were there to talk to and provide advice! Without you guys, I'd still be owned by tins of nic. You're awesome! Well done! I knew you could get thru the weekend! Now, let's do the exact same thing today. Quit with you today!
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Nov 24 2014, 09:06 PM
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Shelly,
I'm TxTaco1 (Jason) and I must say this evening for some reason is the first time I read thru your story. I'm glad/proud to be quit with you today. See ya in the HOF!
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[big]Keep calm and stay quit...[/big]
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m5shelly
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Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
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I think of my fellow SHELLERS {and our supporters} everytime my mind wanders, and considers using 'just once'! Thanks SHELL! Proud to be quit with you.
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Dec 2 2014, 12:18 AM
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- m5shelly
- Dec 1 2014, 10:38 PM
Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch. Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
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