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Snot's Musings
Topic Started: Jul 7 2014, 05:12 PM (2,967 Views)
Diesel2112
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Aug 19 2014, 08:11 PM
Snot
Aug 19 2014, 07:55 PM
Day 51.

After a day 50 that went okay I seem to have hit another funk. Work is stressful, commitments outside of work are growing, and I'm behind on what seems like everything. I have not been this stressed out in months and it sucks. My procrastination is not helping. I'm still committed to the quit but it seems to be not very high in my priority list of everything else going on.
Snot,

Boil it down to the basics. Post roll, honor that promise, repeat. No need for quit to be any more complicated than that. Life is ebbs and tides. Right now you are at high tide... it will pass.

Be committed to the discipline of quit... the extras will come when things calm down.
Shits busy and you say your quit isn't very high on your list right now.

You know what...I get it.

Just make sure that caving doesn't make its way up on that list. Going back to the can isn't going to slow your life down. It fills no voids in your life...it creates more.

Post role and stay quit. That's all u gotta do.

Quit on...
Quit 06/04/12
HOF 9/11/12
2nd floor 12/20/12
3rd floor 03/30/13
4th floor 07/08/13
5th floor 10/16/13
6th floor 01/24/14
7th floor 05/04/14
8th floor 08/12/14
9th floor 10/20/14
Comma 02/28/15
11th floor 06/08/15
12th floor 09/16/15
13th floor 12/25/15
14th floor 04/03/16
15th floor 7/11/16
16th floor 10/20/16
17th floor 01/27/17
18th floor 05/08/17
19th floor 08/14/17
20th floor 11/27/17
21st floor 03/11/18

"Celebrate the moment as it turns into one more"..
"You can fight without ever winning, but never ever win, win without a fight".
"Onion rings...funyons. A connection? Yeah. I fucking think so."
"Honest Abe had a fake jaw".
"In a world that seems so small, I can't stop thinking big"
"Someone set a bad example. Made surrender seem all right
The act of a noble warrior. Who lost the will to fight."

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Diesel2112
Aug 19 2014, 08:22 PM
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Aug 19 2014, 08:11 PM
Snot
Aug 19 2014, 07:55 PM
Day 51.

After a day 50 that went okay I seem to have hit another funk. Work is stressful, commitments outside of work are growing, and I'm behind on what seems like everything. I have not been this stressed out in months and it sucks. My procrastination is not helping. I'm still committed to the quit but it seems to be not very high in my priority list of everything else going on.
Snot,

Boil it down to the basics. Post roll, honor that promise, repeat. No need for quit to be any more complicated than that. Life is ebbs and tides. Right now you are at high tide... it will pass.

Be committed to the discipline of quit... the extras will come when things calm down.
Shits busy and you say your quit isn't very high on your list right now.

You know what...I get it.

Just make sure that caving doesn't make its way up on that list. Going back to the can isn't going to slow your life down. It fills no voids in your life...it creates more.

Post role and stay quit. That's all u gotta do.

Quit on...
Hi - you have made great progress and the physical part is over /-- being stressed out happens and I can promise you that going back to nic in any form will not make anything better.

The items that are piled up -
That can be stressful - knock them out one at a
Time and do what you can -
You can get them all
Done at the same time.

Keep you quit : keep your promise - keep your life
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Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
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Stll Quittin After All These Years!!!
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Snot
Aug 19 2014, 07:55 PM
Day 51.

After a day 50 that went okay I seem to have hit another funk. Work is stressful, commitments outside of work are growing, and I'm behind on what seems like everything. I have not been this stressed out in months and it sucks. My procrastination is not helping. I'm still committed to the quit but it seems to be not very high in my priority list of everything else going on.
'embarrassed'
Edited by doc2quit4good, Sep 2 2014, 04:43 PM.
NO MO SKOAL!!! I MEAN NEVER AGAIN!!!
Real Quit Day 9/18/2013 8th Floor 11/26/15 17th Floor 5/14/18
HOF day: 12/26/2013. 9th Floor 3/5/16
2nd Floor: 4/5/14 Comma Day 6/13/16!!!
3rd Floor 7/14/2014. 3 Years 9/18/6!!!
1 Year 9/17/2014. 11th Floor 9/21/16
4th Floor 10/22/14. 12th Floor 12/30/16
Half Comma 1/30/15. 13th Floor 4/8/17
6th Floor 5/10/15 4 Years 9/18/17!!!
7th Floor 8/18/15. 15th Floor 10/26/17
2 Years 9/17/15 16th Floor 2/3/18
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Snot
Sep 2 2014, 04:16 PM
Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
Your in a pre-70s funk/fog... Hits everyone here eventually. You're cruising along then bang. It happens again later too. Sorry. I still chomp on gum at work. It never goes completely away I don't think. Stick this out man. You can do it. Caving is not an option and you need to be able to say that to yourself. Text somebody in your group. Reach out man. There is someone who can help you.... PM me if you need mine...
NO MO SKOAL!!! I MEAN NEVER AGAIN!!!
Real Quit Day 9/18/2013 8th Floor 11/26/15 17th Floor 5/14/18
HOF day: 12/26/2013. 9th Floor 3/5/16
2nd Floor: 4/5/14 Comma Day 6/13/16!!!
3rd Floor 7/14/2014. 3 Years 9/18/6!!!
1 Year 9/17/2014. 11th Floor 9/21/16
4th Floor 10/22/14. 12th Floor 12/30/16
Half Comma 1/30/15. 13th Floor 4/8/17
6th Floor 5/10/15 4 Years 9/18/17!!!
7th Floor 8/18/15. 15th Floor 10/26/17
2 Years 9/17/15 16th Floor 2/3/18
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Sep 2 2014, 04:42 PM
Snot
Sep 2 2014, 04:16 PM
Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
Your in a pre-70s funk/fog... Hits everyone here eventually. You're cruising along then bang. It happens again later too. Sorry. I still chomp on gum at work. It never goes completely away I don't think. Stick this out man. You can do it. Caving is not an option and you need to be able to say that to yourself. Text somebody in your group. Reach out man. There is someone who can help you.... PM me if you need mine...
Yep. Sounds like The Funk to me. Hang in there bro. Re-commit.

Explaining "The Funk" Part 1 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-1/
Explaining "The Funk" Part 2 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-2/
"Every man dies... not every man really lives." - William Wallace
"Now that I've quit, I'm really living.' - iuchewie
QD - 7.24.06 / HOF - 10.31.06 / 2nd Floor - 2.08.07 / 3rd Floor - 5.19.07 / 4th Floor - 8.27.07 / 5th Floor - 12.05.07 / 6th Floor - 3.14.08 / 7th Floor - 6.22.08 / 8th Floor - 9.30.08
9th Floor - 1.08.09 / Comma - 4.18.09 / 11th Floor - 7.27.09 / 12th Floor - 11.04.09 / 13th Floor - 2.12.10 / 14th Floor - 05.23.10 / 15th Floor - 08.31.2010 / 16th Floor - 12.9.10
17th Floor - 3.19.11 / 18th Floor - 6.27.11 / 19th Floor - 10.5.11 / 2K - 1.13.12 / 21st Floor - 4.22.12 / 22nd Floor - 7.31.12 / 23rd Floor - 11.8.12 / 24th Floor - 2.16.13 / 25th Floor - 5.27.13
26th Floor - 9.4.13 / 27th Floor - 12.12.13 / 28th Floor - 3.24.14 / 29th Floor - 7.1.14 / 3K - 10.9.14 / 31st Floor - 1.17.15 / 32nd Floor - 4.27.15 / 33rd Floor - 8.5.15 / 34th Floor - 9.13.15
35th Floor - 2.21.16 / 36th Floor - 5.31.16 / 37th Floor - 9.8.16 / 38th Floor - 12.17.16 / 39th Floor - 3.27.17 / 4K - 7.5.17 / 41st Floor - 10.13.17 / 42nd Floor - 1.21.18 / 43rd Floor - 5.1.18
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chewie
Sep 2 2014, 05:17 PM
doc2quit4good
Sep 2 2014, 04:42 PM
Snot
Sep 2 2014, 04:16 PM
Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
Your in a pre-70s funk/fog... Hits everyone here eventually. You're cruising along then bang. It happens again later too. Sorry. I still chomp on gum at work. It never goes completely away I don't think. Stick this out man. You can do it. Caving is not an option and you need to be able to say that to yourself. Text somebody in your group. Reach out man. There is someone who can help you.... PM me if you need mine...
Yep. Sounds like The Funk to me. Hang in there bro. Re-commit.

Explaining "The Funk" Part 1 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-1/
Explaining "The Funk" Part 2 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-2/
Snot, its time to grab your sack again. I remember the exact same feeling. Trust me, it doesn't last long but it is powerful. two days and you are right back on easy street for a few weeks. Just stay quit and you won't regret it, however if you come here and post day 1 you will feel like the slime on the bottom of a slug. We get your funk, fight through it like the winner that you are.

Mogul
Make the Decision

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HOF 2/8/2014
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mogul
Sep 2 2014, 09:35 PM
chewie
Sep 2 2014, 05:17 PM
doc2quit4good
Sep 2 2014, 04:42 PM
Snot
Sep 2 2014, 04:16 PM
Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
Your in a pre-70s funk/fog... Hits everyone here eventually. You're cruising along then bang. It happens again later too. Sorry. I still chomp on gum at work. It never goes completely away I don't think. Stick this out man. You can do it. Caving is not an option and you need to be able to say that to yourself. Text somebody in your group. Reach out man. There is someone who can help you.... PM me if you need mine...
Yep. Sounds like The Funk to me. Hang in there bro. Re-commit.

Explaining "The Funk" Part 1 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-1/
Explaining "The Funk" Part 2 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-2/
Snot, its time to grab your sack again. I remember the exact same feeling. Trust me, it doesn't last long but it is powerful. two days and you are right back on easy street for a few weeks. Just stay quit and you won't regret it, however if you come here and post day 1 you will feel like the slime on the bottom of a slug. We get your funk, fight through it like the winner that you are.

Mogul
Thank you all for the support. This evening is already slightly better than the rest of the day. I'll fight through this funk. No way I'm caving and letting my Titan brothers and sisters down.
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Sep 2 2014, 10:25 PM
mogul
Sep 2 2014, 09:35 PM
chewie
Sep 2 2014, 05:17 PM
doc2quit4good
Sep 2 2014, 04:42 PM
Snot
Sep 2 2014, 04:16 PM
Day 65.

Haven't updated this in a while because quite frankly the quit has been tolerable for the past couple of weeks. I've been going hours at a time not even thinking about nic. I've only thought about it during the major trigger times (after dinner, after workouts, on the computer) and the craves have been manageable.

Then today hit and it's like I'm back on day 20. Headache, craves, agitated. Not quite 'first week bad' but worse than it's been in weeks. The craves just won't go away. Gum, candy help for about two minutes. Nowhere near a cave, just annoyed. The craves are annoying because they won't win so they should just go away and stop being annoying. I made my promise today so nic is off the table.

I also think I've reached a point where the fake stuff just makes it worse. It was useful the first 6 weeks but now it seems to make the craves worse. I think it's time to wean myself off of fake. I"ll finish what I got but not get any more.

Crave, crave, go away, come again... no!... go away forever!
Your in a pre-70s funk/fog... Hits everyone here eventually. You're cruising along then bang. It happens again later too. Sorry. I still chomp on gum at work. It never goes completely away I don't think. Stick this out man. You can do it. Caving is not an option and you need to be able to say that to yourself. Text somebody in your group. Reach out man. There is someone who can help you.... PM me if you need mine...
Yep. Sounds like The Funk to me. Hang in there bro. Re-commit.

Explaining "The Funk" Part 1 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-1/
Explaining "The Funk" Part 2 http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/explaining-the-funk-part-2/
Snot, its time to grab your sack again. I remember the exact same feeling. Trust me, it doesn't last long but it is powerful. two days and you are right back on easy street for a few weeks. Just stay quit and you won't regret it, however if you come here and post day 1 you will feel like the slime on the bottom of a slug. We get your funk, fight through it like the winner that you are.

Mogul
Thank you all for the support. This evening is already slightly better than the rest of the day. I'll fight through this funk. No way I'm caving and letting my Titan brothers and sisters down.
Snot like the rest of the guys I was there too. Run down, felt like I was back in the fog. I kind of see this as your addiction making a final charge at your will power. Unfortunately the funk for me lasted for 30ish days. But the back end of this is a whole lot of sunshine. Keep grinding.
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Day 68.

Still in a funk. Sucks big time. Feels like week 2. 'bang head'

Not going to let it win. I will succeed.
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Snot
Sep 5 2014, 09:44 AM
Day 68.

Still in a funk. Sucks big time. Feels like week 2. 'bang head'

Not going to let it win. I will succeed.
Hang in there bro... I'm guessing by the time Monday rolls around you'll be good as gold.

And you'll be marching your way to the HOF.

Drink water, go back to basics... pretend like it IS your first two weeks. You did "things" to get you to day 68. Do those "things" again.

PM me and you got another number in your arsenal... keep posting. You're on the right track.

chewie
"Every man dies... not every man really lives." - William Wallace
"Now that I've quit, I'm really living.' - iuchewie
QD - 7.24.06 / HOF - 10.31.06 / 2nd Floor - 2.08.07 / 3rd Floor - 5.19.07 / 4th Floor - 8.27.07 / 5th Floor - 12.05.07 / 6th Floor - 3.14.08 / 7th Floor - 6.22.08 / 8th Floor - 9.30.08
9th Floor - 1.08.09 / Comma - 4.18.09 / 11th Floor - 7.27.09 / 12th Floor - 11.04.09 / 13th Floor - 2.12.10 / 14th Floor - 05.23.10 / 15th Floor - 08.31.2010 / 16th Floor - 12.9.10
17th Floor - 3.19.11 / 18th Floor - 6.27.11 / 19th Floor - 10.5.11 / 2K - 1.13.12 / 21st Floor - 4.22.12 / 22nd Floor - 7.31.12 / 23rd Floor - 11.8.12 / 24th Floor - 2.16.13 / 25th Floor - 5.27.13
26th Floor - 9.4.13 / 27th Floor - 12.12.13 / 28th Floor - 3.24.14 / 29th Floor - 7.1.14 / 3K - 10.9.14 / 31st Floor - 1.17.15 / 32nd Floor - 4.27.15 / 33rd Floor - 8.5.15 / 34th Floor - 9.13.15
35th Floor - 2.21.16 / 36th Floor - 5.31.16 / 37th Floor - 9.8.16 / 38th Floor - 12.17.16 / 39th Floor - 3.27.17 / 4K - 7.5.17 / 41st Floor - 10.13.17 / 42nd Floor - 1.21.18 / 43rd Floor - 5.1.18
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Thanks, Chewie.

Day 68 still and it's not a good day.

Just had to put our family dog of 14 years down this afternoon. Feeling pretty crummy but I know nic will not help and only make matters worse. Now, beer on the other hand...


Still quit, not gonna cave, but day 68 is turning into one of the worst days of my quit.
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Sep 5 2014, 05:15 PM
Thanks, Chewie.

Day 68 still and it's not a good day.

Just had to put our family dog of 14 years down this afternoon. Feeling pretty crummy but I know nic will not help and only make matters worse. Now, beer on the other hand...


Still quit, not gonna cave, but day 68 is turning into one of the worst days of my quit.
Sorry to hear about the loss of your family member. Quit with you, Snot.
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Day 73.

I think I am finally coming out of my funk and the thing that triggered me coming out was a dip dream last night. I dreamed I had caved and woke up this morning thinking for a few seconds that it was real. The feeling of disappointment, regret, and - most of all - shame for those few seconds was depressing and sad. I think it triggered a renewed resolve to stay quit for good. The dream showed me how stupid and shameful going back would be now.

As a result, the rest of the day has been much better than the previous week. I'm quit today.

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Snot
Sep 10 2014, 05:11 PM
Day 73.

I think I am finally coming out of my funk and the thing that triggered me coming out was a dip dream last night. I dreamed I had caved and woke up this morning thinking for a few seconds that it was real. The feeling of disappointment, regret, and - most of all - shame for those few seconds was depressing and sad. I think it triggered a renewed resolve to stay quit for good. The dream showed me how stupid and shameful going back would be now.

As a result, the rest of the day has been much better than the previous week. I'm quit today.

Right on Snot! My worst time so far was around day 78 and it was 3 days of crap like in the beginning. Since then its been pretty good. I hope it goes the same for you. The main thing is you have the tools to fight off all craves. Keep going man. Better days ahead.
ODAAT....Learn It.....Know It.....Live It
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