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Topic Started: Dec 19 2010, 11:40 PM (746 Views)
grimace8777
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So, here I am yet again. I quit for 9 months!!!! I had a few life problems happen, nothing really out of the ordinary life BS and bam, I'm back at it. How did I quit for 9 months and let myself go back at it? This question plagues me big time, I don't get it the first can was the hardest to buy. So, here I am again 4 chews in the last 7 days and 0 in the last 2. I'm tired of always thinking that I'm going to die of cancer, I'm tired of looking at my mouth every 2 seconds trying to figure out if "that's normal". I never worried about that stuff after 9 months! I feel like such a failure for going back, well, not this time, I've got to quit for good.

Sorry, just had to get this off my chest, I'm going to be working back in the field in a few days and it's going to be a fight but one that I must win!!!
Quit Date 12/18/10
HOF Date 3/27/11
2nd Floor 7/5/11
3rd Floor 10/13/11
1 Year 12/17/11
4th Floor 1/21/12
5th Floor 4/30/12
6th Floor 8/8/12
7th Floor 11/16/12
2 Years 12/17/12
8th Floor 2/25/13
9th Floor 6/04/13
Day 1,000 9/12/13
3 Years 12/17/13
4 Years 12/17/14
5 Years 12/17/15
6 Years 12/17/16
7 Years 12/17/17
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Smokeyg
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Rah Rah Rah Sis Boom Bah.

Whoopdee fuckin' doo.

What's going to make this time different?
The History of One Tough Motherfucker
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nmc
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grimace8777
Dec 19, 2010, 9:40 pm
How did I quit for 9 months and let myself go back at it?  This question plagues me big time, I don't get it the first can was the hardest to buy. 

You didn't quit, you were just taking a break. You've been a member here for over a year and you've only got two posts? Spend some time learning about this place and what quitting means and I suspect you'll start to get it.

Indeed, what is going to be different?
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Ready
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If you are serious, give your word.

Then keep it.
Caving is not an option, Do something else.

Burn your boats!

"This takes commitment, effort, accountibility and to be honest....blood, guts and nuts." - redtrain14

"Hey, snowflake, don't take a seat in the life raft if you are not serious about saving your life." - Scowick65

"Now I can walk through walls and my quit can talk to god. That's right. Crazy voodoo magic quit." - Souliman

Nicotine doesn't give two shits about your strategery, and that's just a fact. Only strategy that works is promise not to use nicotine first thing every morning, keep that promise all day, rinse, repeat. - teamgreen
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grimace8777
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Ya, you guys are right for sure. I have been a member for a long time, thought I could go at it alone but I now realize my method was flawed. I started posting role that is what I am doing this time, and I realize that even after 100 days that doesn't mean shit because I had crossed 200 days before.

So now when I have a craving, I come read on this site and that seems to help so far as well.
Quit Date 12/18/10
HOF Date 3/27/11
2nd Floor 7/5/11
3rd Floor 10/13/11
1 Year 12/17/11
4th Floor 1/21/12
5th Floor 4/30/12
6th Floor 8/8/12
7th Floor 11/16/12
2 Years 12/17/12
8th Floor 2/25/13
9th Floor 6/04/13
Day 1,000 9/12/13
3 Years 12/17/13
4 Years 12/17/14
5 Years 12/17/15
6 Years 12/17/16
7 Years 12/17/17
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USAFCCT
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I have recently thought about this web site and why the principles work. One of my greatest interests is fitness and I think this quitting business has a lot of similarities to working out. Consider for a minute the success rate of people who are trying to get in shape using a home gym vs someone paying monthly for a gym membership. Most people that I know who have their own equipment at their home rarely put it to good use. Studies show that most people will be more successful by joining a gym. The monthly membership will often make one feel monetarily invested, the gym provides a more intriguing/stimulating workout environment, and most importantly joining a workout group or having a workout partner makes you feel socially invested. When you have a workout partner expecting you to be at the gym every morning, it makes it that much more difficult for you to pull the covers over your head and go back to sleep. You feel as though someone is counting on you. Your absence will undoubtedly affect your partner's workout. Just as you feel obligated to show up, so does your partner. The parallels to this site are obvious. All of our quits are made stronger by the knowledge that there are people on here counting on you to be here. We see other people succeed and grow stronger in their quit and it pushes us to become stronger in our quit. We develop a bond with our quit brothers and we don't want to disappoint them and let them down. We post roll every day because our quit brothers are waiting to see us post roll. We stay quit because if he can do it, why can't I?
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Sadjr111
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Grimace, this site works on the principle of accountability. By posting roll and having phone numbers of the people here, you make your self accountable to them. You keep your word. You had no accountability = your quit didn't last. Are you going to make your self accountable to the other members on this site?
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HKS
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USAFCCT: I really appeciate the help from everyone on the board but I am not doing this for anyone but myself. I post b/c I want to post and not b/c someone is waiting for my HKS to show up and my number count. I know people care and I believe it but if I was doing this to please my wife, I would develop a nice,old, big resentment. They say that you are selffish in your addiction , and I certainly believe that, but you must also be selffish in your recovery, to a point. Asking for support in your recovery is vital and this board is one of the ways to do it. If someone is posting on this board b/c they don't want to let XYZ down, that will only last for a short while.....god bless and stay quit.
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HKS
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Being accountable to others is important but if you can't be accountable to yourself, first and foremost, you will always fail.
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kms
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USAFCCT: I really appeciate the help from everyone on the board but I am not doing this for anyone but myself. I post b/c I want to post and not b/c someone is waiting for my HKS to show up and my number count. I know people care and I believe it but if I was doing this to please my wife, I would develop a nice,old, big resentment. They say that you are selffish in your addiction , and I certainly believe that, but you must also be selffish in your recovery, to a point. Asking for support in your recovery is vital and this board is one of the ways to do it. If someone is posting on this board b/c they don't want to let XYZ down, that will only last for a short while.....god bless and stay quit.

I disagree - at least from my standpoint - if we allow an addition to control us then we obviously do not have any respect or accountability for ourselves. By being members on this site we have stated that we have an addiction that is controlling us & are looking for help. If, by posting roll on this site, we do not dip solely because we don't want to let XYZ down - then great - it stopped us from doing something we otherwise wouldn't have any control over for the day. I can tell you that I would not have made it to day 4 except for the fact that I posted roll (late in the afternoon because I was thinking about caving). If need to lean on somebody because I can't do it for myself right now - then so be it. Because after that time comes when I realize I have my own strength & can do this for myself, then I will be there for others to lean on. I'm hoping that they will have enough respect for me to post roll every day even if they are quitting just because they don't want to let me down. If that gets them to a point where they are stronger & able to quit for themselves then maybe it will be a life saved that otherwise could have been lost.
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HKS
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I agree with what you have said but I struggle with the idea that someone is trying to please XYZ on the board. I do agree with you and realize that everyone is different and their motivational factors are different too.
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HKS
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If, by posting roll on this site, we do not dip solely because we don't want to let XYZ down - then great - it stopped us from doing something we otherwise wouldn't have any control over for the day. ( yes we do have control over this, don't use the substance ) Granted, easier said than done.
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sapperred1
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Why is it that it matters about posting? At work, outside the door you can see a gas station. They sell chew any kind you want. The first couple of days on this site I would walk out the and look at that gas station thinking I should go get a can. But I did not because I put my name on this list with people I do not really know. They would not know if I did but I did not. Why it works I am not sure whether for me or for you guys. I just know it works so far for me.
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HKS
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HKS
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it is great that everyone is posting and supporting each other but my thought was that if I cave, and just speaking for myself, I take full responsibility for it and know that I am soley responsible for my failure to live up to myself. The accountability factor to the site is second and distant. Granted I would feel bad but I only let myself down.
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