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Gum Grafts - I've had 5!; I thought this should be a new topic
Topic Started: Jun 10 2012, 06:08 PM (9,686 Views)
Mike B
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bigbamadan I dont know who Mike A is.


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Is this adding to the thread.. I was told to stop making new topics just ad to old posts! So let me know if this is right. This is not the easiest OS to figure out lads.. That may be part of the plan! Anyway Day 5!!! Holy Shit! B-I-T-C-H!! THis was my hardest day so far.. I fell like i've been in a boxing match with the Champ all damn day! At every turn.. BAM!! Been pretty much a constant strggle! At no time did the thought of caving enter my head. The thought of getting my ass here to post some bullshit did though! That and atomic bombs.. & truthfully I really did not want to dip! It stopped working a long time ago! and it it will never work again.. thanks for the QUIT today boys... you gave it to me..
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I need some help today... I thought day 5 was bad! Day 8 was a nightmare! I guess I have been maybe sleeping 3 to 4 hours a night. & it's pretty shitty sleep.. even with melatonin and some other sleep aids. Yesterday I had to spend quite a bit of time in my truck driving. I had about a 2 hour road trip, each way.. The entire fucking time I was fighting sleep! I was so sleepy.. I would yell and sing and roll the window down.. roll it up.. stick my head out the window.. the entire trip was a struggle to stay awake.. I knew that if only I had some dip... all this would go away.. well I did not cave! I get home last night.. my girlfriend came over she was suppose to be here at 7.. she was late of course and I let her fucking have it! (she is always late, last night just chapped my ass more than usual).. so we got into pretty much a knock down! This morning after about 3 or 4 hours of shitty sleep I am here.. thinking is it really worth it?? I am getting depressed.. I am very tired.. if i get to the point if I really think I am going to drink over this.. I will dip! If i drink all bets are off for me in life in general! & I will be doing much more than dipping. Dip will be the least of my worries if I start drinking again after 9 years.. I need some real experience..strength.. & hope today.. not this "be a man horse shit!" I am a fucking man.. & I have manned up showed up and fought more days in my life than you can imagine..
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Thinking is your first problem. The more you think, the more you will be able to justify taking a dip....or a drink.

I'm sad...take a dip/drink
I'm happy ..take a dip/drink
I'm excited ..take a dip/drink
I'm tired ..take a dip/drink
Girlfriend is pissing me off ..take a dip/drink (what planet are you from ...every chick on this earth is always late. It's what they do) If you are into C&W listen to Brad Paisley song Waitin on a Women. Nails it.
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Using any outside event to justify an action is horseshit.

Is it really worth it ? You tell me. Why did you quit in the first place ? What did you expect when you quit ...dancing around listening to harp music ? You thought after 9 days you would be quit for good without having to fight for it ?

Why doesn't everybody quit ? Because it is fucking hard. If it was easy, there wouldn't be the need for this site.....or nic patches, or hypnosis, acupuncture, self help tapes or whatever else the fuck people get scammed into buying because they can't quit on their own.

Do you think you are unique ? That nobody else on this site has gone through exactly what you are going through now ? How did they make it through ? They gritted their teeth and moved forward. They talked to someone on the site....they went for a run...they hit the heavy bag...they rubbed one out....whatever it takes.

I crave everyday and it pisses me off everyday. Rage all you like. Nothing wrong with that....but don't go looking for an excuse to cave.
Quit Date: March 23 2012

I am Quit today. Tomorrow ?
Not impressed with rants from the 'Do As I Say Not As I Do' crowd.
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Gooch, no exuse is good enough to cave in to a craving. We all crave. We all suffer through the pain, short fuzes, sleeping disorder, etc. we just can't give in, NO SURRENDER!!! Own this freedom, it is yours don't let that nic bitch take it back from you.
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Jun 19, 2012, 4:06 am
Thinking is your first problem. The more you think, the more you will be able to justify taking a dip....or a drink.

I'm sad...take a dip/drink
I'm happy ..take a dip/drink
I'm excited ..take a dip/drink
I'm tired ..take a dip/drink
Girlfriend is pissing me off ..take a dip/drink (what planet are you from ...every chick on this earth is always late. It's what they do) If you are into C&W listen to Brad Paisley song Waitin on a Women. Nails it.
etc
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Using any outside event to justify an action is horseshit.

Is it really worth it ? You tell me. Why did you quit in the first place ? What did you expect when you quit ...dancing around listening to harp music ? You thought after 9 days you would be quit for good without having to fight for it ?

Why doesn't everybody quit ? Because it is fucking hard. If it was easy, there wouldn't be the need for this site.....or nic patches, or hypnosis, acupuncture, self help tapes or whatever else the fuck people get scammed into buying because they can't quit on their own.

Do you think you are unique ? That nobody else on this site has gone through exactly what you are going through now ? How did they make it through ? They gritted their teeth and moved forward. They talked to someone on the site....they went for a run...they hit the heavy bag...they rubbed one out....whatever it takes.

I crave everyday and it pisses me off everyday. Rage all you like. Nothing wrong with that....but don't go looking for an excuse to cave.

I carumba10!

Nice response and post. I like it.
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Gooch - All I can tell you is that it sounds like you've got the hang of it!!! You're doing it right for sure, brother!!! Never go back...NEVER.

You're beating the Nic Bitch one day at a time...in fact, it sounds like you're beating all of your addictions one day at a time. You're a fucking heroic bad-ass quitter!!! I'm pumped about what you're doing.

There are no short-cuts. It doesn't matter who you are, where you're from, what you did before now. The only thing that matters is what you are right now...and you, my brother, are quit!!!

Everybody has to go through the shit you're dealing with right now to earn their freedom. Really take note of how much it sucks. Cherish the feeling of earning your freedom. I used to get in my truck and yell too. Every cuss word I could think of and a bunch of other shit that didn't come out right...you know, really garbled strange rage cussing.

As far as your GF goes...go easy on her. Addiction isn't her fault. So what if she is late? Unless you're a dog, you can't lick your own balls. So, you might want to be a little nicer because she can, right?

It will get better...I don't remember how long it took for "normal" sleep to return. I want to say that it was maybe a couple of months or so. Exercise and then a Tylenol PM sorta worked for me. And even then I still had terrible nights every once in a while.

STAY STRONG BROTHER!!! IT GETS BETTER!!!
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Gooch, take it out on your dummy if you can't bitch at us. I'd bet he will understand.
Whether you are celebrating on the plains of Kansas, or the mountains of North Carolina, sit back and have a cold one today and be proud of yourself.

You are a cat football fan, and there is nothing better on the earth.

-Shwan "Fatty" Alkhatib #fatty4ksu Birth of Kansas State Football

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Hey Gooch - Right there with u on Day 11 of no Dip & 5 years not drinking....Misery loves company my man!! No dipping, no drinking...that's why my avatar says 'bitches' plural......Hang in there buddy, Day 11 sucks too!
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Gooch remember the misery you put yourself though when you started dipping and drinking. The dizziness, the throwing up. It seems to me quitting is not as bad as starting. I am at day 11, every time I have a crave (every 5 minutes) I remind myself how much effort I put in to starting this shit, and think if I only put half as much effort into quitting I will be successful. Lord I hope I am right. I don't want this shit anymore.

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I have no idea what to say to you Gooch. No magic words. But I do have suggestions and do have my support. If any of us could take the pain away we most likely would. The unfortunate truth is that this is part of recovery. The depression/rage/ all of what you are going through is pretty much normal. I had the same questions, went through the same thing.

One question is do you have a real live person you can talk to. We are fine but I found that the face to face is important. If you do not I suggest you go find a therapist. I have in the past and it does help.

Are you able to take some time off. When I first quit I did so on vacation, away from work and stress and life. This gave me the time I needed to put some things in place to help me. 7 days of no stress may make a world of difference.

If you do not exercise I strongly suggest you start. The sweat helps with the detox and stress. Also try massage/sauna/whirlpool. I especially found that the massage helped immensely.

Do you laugh alot. I found early on that laughing and humor helped. Right now I am fighting some depression which I believe is part of the recovery process and I am at day 94. I have been in a funk for 2 weeks. I am trying to get to my therapist to have a chat because it is not fair to my wife to have to deal with a grumpy asshole of a husband.

Other than that - make sure you have fake stuff or seeds or something handy. Drink h2o or diet soda or something non alcholoic and keep going

Remember the raider x mottos
This shit is easy but will be the hardest thing you ever do in your life
Life is hard, wear a helmut
And my own personnel meditation mantra

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Quit today
Repeat tomorrow

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You guys are awesome!!! I dont know how to hightlight the stuff you guys are saying.. put it in a box and respond! You are all my heros... to all get through this shit come out on the other side smiling and helping! Thanks a million! Gooch
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I think Olive Oil just split! (thats actually my GF Cheri).. I just call her Olive Oil... I dont really care.. She has been kinda a pain in my ass for the past several months.. I swear fellas this is what has happened here.. I have just been honest! Withdrawl made me honest & Honest pissed her off! I was honestly tired of listening to her shit! this was before I stopped dipping! can you imagine how I've felt for the past 9 days! HOLY HELL! torture! I am actually relieved now and not nearly as stressed and definitely not thinking of dipping! Gooch
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Gooch it does not matter how beautiful a woman is, they will always be a pain in someones ass. (Im still not given up titties)
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Gooch it does not matter how beautiful a woman is, they will always be a pain in someones ass. (Im still not given up titties)

Dip sucks ass water.
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