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The time is here.; Day 2
Topic Started: Sep 14 2011, 01:03 PM (853 Views)
Pogue Mahone
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One for the road.
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Hello to all.

I'm 41 year old husband, father, airline pilot and nicotine junkie. I chewed my way through the Marine Corps, smoked to quit chewing then chewed to quit smoking. I haven't touched a cigarette in forever and even the smell of them makes me sick. Chew was the real problem for me.

I quit cold turkey when my first child came around and I had not had a chew in about 8 years. Totally nicotine free.... until 3 years ago, like a complete asshole I was camping and fatefully brought a can of Skoal for around the campfire when I knew all the other would have the cigars and cigarettes. Since I was "cured" for 8 years I figured I would have no problem just chewing for a night or two on the camping trip.

Right....I was hooked again instantly. Just shy of 3 years later, I am almost a can day like a nicotine (Skoal) crackhead. I chew all day, even at work. I'm an airline pilot so I can even chew while I am sitting in the cockpit for 6 hours. Bad recipe for a nicotine junkie.

I need to quit, want to quit, and know I can quit. It was just a matter of picking the moment. I am not a preparer, I am a better decider. My 8 year old made me swear I would quit before his birthday (September 25), a couple of the kids at his school lost parents to cancer in the last year.

So yesterday I threw it all away. Here I am day 2, of course longing for nicotine, but I will survive that, but worse the dragon that that chases you in your own mind...did I quit soon enough? Will I end up like those pictures? Will my kids have to see me die like that because I am a stupid asshole? All those things that your mind can push away when you have yet to say enough, but once you do, the rationale part of your brain accepts the game of roulette you have been playing with your own life.

I found this site by accident a few weeks back, I poked around a bit, but was not quite there yet. I know it seems weird but I think this site may be a huge help. I have a lot of support here at home, but I see the camaraderie amongst a bunch of strangers here that understand the addiction.

So hello, thanks in advance for your help and support and I hope I can help all of you. I know I can do this, I know it gonna suck for a while, but I can survive it because I have decided it's time to do this thing.

Cordially,

Pogue
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tazmed
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Wake up, pee, post roll, then coffee...ugly, but effective.
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Welcome aboard, Pogue.

I woke up to day 85 of being nicotine free this morning after 34 years of being a slave to the can. Dipping was such an integral part of who I was that it was like having something surgically removed from my body. If it wasn't for KTC and brothers/sisters here, I would have been back in the can within a few hours. Because of KTC, I don't do that shit anymore.

The process is very easy...go to the Welcome Center and read through the steps. Focus on posting roll because that's how we do things here. 12-step programs are for pussies...we only need three:

1. Post roll first thing each morning and promise your brothers that you will not put nicotine into your body, just for today.
2. Keep your word
3. Come back tomorrow and do it again.

There are literally thousands of guys here (and a few girls too) who will back you up all the way if you're committed to your quit. Get to know your December quit group, exchange phone numbers and emails so you can hold each other accountable, read everything you can find here on the site, and get in the chat room if you start struggling. Shoot me a PM if you need some numbers...I'll quit with you today. 'archer'
34 years a slave to the can
First taste of freedom - 6/22/11
HOF - 9/29/11
HOL - 3/17/14

Vires quod Veneratio

Being quit is not my priority, quit is who I am...I AM QUIT!

The difference between Crave and Cave is ONE...LITTLE...LETTER. Don't drop it!

Something Inspirational
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Parputt
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One Day At A Time, One Mile At A Time!
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Good to have you here Pogue. I am a 43 year old father of two beautiful little girls 8 and 5. I do not know if I quit soon enough, but I know for damn sure it won't hurt anything. The look on my oldest daughters face when I told her I was quitting and had her throw my last can of Cope. out will forever be ingrained in my mind.

Our way of quitting/support works. All you gotta do is get involved and stay involved. History has shown that those that quit posting roll every day cave. So post roll every day and keep you word to you fellow quitters.

You can do that can't you jarhead?
QD: 1-13-11
HOF: 4-22-11
Sobriety date: 3-4-07

One is one too many
One more is never enough


This Is My Quit

You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself, any direction you choose ~ Dr. Seuss
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whacko
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Glad to have you on board! If you are on day two you are about 1/2 way through the REAL SUCK!!!! Trust me it is still hard after days 1 - 5 but definately not absolute hell.

I'm on day 34 and SO glad I quit. All I can say is REMEMBER how bad you feel right now......I use it as a motivator to stay quit. I never want to go through that again.

Post everyday!!!!! These guys and gals understand what you are going through!
EX ninja dipper!
Felt good to come clean on August 12, 2011
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AdamBomb
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Right here with you man! Day 2 for me as well.
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"The best thing about Marx is that he wasn't a Keynesian." Rothbard
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Pogue Mahone
Sep 14, 2011, 11:03 am
I know it seems weird but I think this site may be a huge help. I have a lot of support here at home, but I see the camaraderie amongst a bunch of strangers here that understand the addiction.

Ain't nothing weird about it, Pogue. Your family isn't addicted to nicotine. They can tell you they're proud of you, but they can't tell you that they know what you're going through. We know. And we know how to help. We have the super secret plan.

Post roll. Be a man of your word. Get up tomorrow and post your word first thing. Rinse and Repeat.

Welcome. Good to be quit with you. Yell if you need anything. gmann -251 days of freedom.
Day 1=January 7, 2011

“It is no crime to be ignorant of economics, which is, after all, a specialized discipline and one that most people consider to be a ‘dismal science.’ But it is totally irresponsible to have a loud and vociferous opinion on economic subjects while remaining in this state of ignorance.” - Rothbard
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gmann
Sep 14, 2011, 2:47 pm
Pogue Mahone
Sep 14, 2011, 11:03 am
I know it seems weird but I think this site may be a huge help.  I have a lot of support here at home, but I see the camaraderie amongst a bunch of strangers here that understand the addiction.

Ain't nothing weird about it, Pogue. Your family isn't addicted to nicotine. They can tell you they're proud of you, but they can't tell you that they know what you're going through. We know. And we know how to help. We have the super secret plan.

Post roll. Be a man of your word. Get up tomorrow and post your word first thing. Rinse and Repeat.

Welcome. Good to be quit with you. Yell if you need anything. gmann -251 days of freedom.

I have nothing to add other than I read your introduction and I am glad you are here. Let me know if you need some help. You can count on me.
1 Problem + Nicotine = 2 Problems
"Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit" ~ 30

Post with March 2011
Day 2,600: 1/22/2018
Day 0,001: 12/11/2010

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Timeless117
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"smoked to quit chewing then chewed to quit smoking. I haven't touched a cigarette in forever and even the smell of them makes me sick. Chew was the real problem for me."

I know how that goes. I picked up smoking so many times to quit dipping. And then when I got sick of smelling like a dirty ashtray I would pick up dipping and be done with smoking.

I didn't mind the smell of cigs when I was dipping. My old boss smoked, and he would walk into his house when I would hang out there and reak. That was the smell I couldn't take.

Now that I've quit 3 days, I see or smell a cig and I want it. Try to rationalize how it's going to be okay.
Day 1: 09/12/2011
HOF: 12/20/2011
1 year: 09/11/2012

HOF Speech: Day 100, Just another day in the life of Timeless

Now, like all great plans, my strategy is so simple an idiot could have devised it.

Proud member of the Brotherhood of Men on Planet Earth
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Pogue Mahone
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Wow, thanks for the replies and the support guys. I know the first few days will be tough, but I know I will do it. I will post roll tomorrow morning and deal with tomorrow when the time comes. I think this is really going to help. I'm doing okay this evening but I see some tough moments in the next few days.

Good to know others are going through the same thing.

Pogue
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Phil4
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Welcome, Pogue. Hang tough. You got this. I quit with you.
Quit 07/14/11
HOF 10/21/11
2nd 01/30/12
3rd 05/08/12
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Leahy16
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Hang tough, Pogue. If this former squid can quit today then so can you.

I'm proud to be quit with you.

Semper Fi
Quit Date Jun 5, 2011; HOF Sep 12, 2011; 1,000 days Feb 28, 2014
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nicofiend
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Welcome aboard the quitters train Pogue! Great decision you made to choose to quit nicotine! Stay strong and approach and own your quit one day at a time! These first few days is not going to be a day at the beach, but embrace the suck and it will get a hell of a lot better. Proud to be quit with you! nicofiend
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Pogue Mahone
Sep 14, 2011, 10:03 am
Bad recipe for a nicotine junkie.

I need to quit, want to quit, and know I can quit.  It was just a matter of picking the moment.  I am not a preparer, I am a better decider.  My 8 year old made me swear I would quit before his birthday (September 25), a couple of the kids at his school lost parents to cancer in the last year.

So yesterday I threw it all away.  Here I am day 2, of course longing for nicotine, but I will survive that, but worse the dragon that that chases you in your own mind...did I quit soon enough?  Will I end up like those pictures?  Will my kids have to see me die like that because I am a stupid asshole?

Welcome to the site; post that roll tomorrow/soon. You threw the shit out and you're quit and you've seen what "just one" can do. I'm in the December group with you, and we've a lot in common with our nicotine history.

We're here to support; I look forward to having all of us quit together.

Semper Fi
December 2011 HOF group
Quit: September 6, 2011 (wth)
HOF: December 15, 2011
2nd Floor: March 24, 2012
3rd Floor: July 2, 2012
4th Floor: October 10, 2012
5th Floor: January 18, 2013
6th Floor: April 28, 2013
7th Floor: August 6, 2013
8th Floor: November 14, 2013
9th Floor: February 22, 2014
der comma: June 2, 2014


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