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Read: What to Expect Day by Day; Day by Day Guide to Quitting
Topic Started: Sep 6 2011, 11:44 PM (1,824 Views)
Syndrome
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The Decision.


It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011.  I have tried quitting before and have failed.  I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit.  At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip). 

and your failing now before you evin start with your fatty in.

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My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount.  This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency.  My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm.  Also, to only allow 3 maximum.

so your really not wantin to quit. you just want to cut back. lemme tell ya creem puff. i wood go all day with 3 dips. dip number 1 - brekfist to lunch. dip number 2 - lunch to dinner. dip number 3 - dinner to bed time. so your 3 dip shit don't inpress me none at all.

look man dont waste these fine quiterers time feelin your self up. eether quit or find some other site to rite your bull shit on.
any day what ends in "y" is a good day to be quit... hay man today ends in "y"

man if all your gonna do is post statis updates, stick to the face book and tweeter. you wanna quit with me? then gosh darn it post roll.

hof speechin or the best dam intro thred. and your all ways wellcome over to the party bus a quit

my thots on when to leave kill the can and my very own words a wisdom
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Sep 7, 2011, 12:06 am
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.

Somebody's been watching too much Oprah. This ain't rocket surgery, Texas. While you're searching your "inner self", take a look around in there for your balls. If you want a fulfilling and self-enriching journey to chronicle, then do this the KTC way - - cold turkey. That is a story that we would love to read. I don't think many will be interested in reading about the half-assed way you're going about it right now.

Toss out all the nic, rise and proclaim yourself quit, and go post roll with December. I quit with you!
Quit 07/14/11
HOF 10/21/11
2nd 01/30/12
3rd 05/08/12
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As someone who has been on the quit a shade over a week, I must say it's a little insulting for you to begin chronicling your quit before you've posted up (and with a fucking lipper in tapping away). I'm going through some fucked up shit right now and the bitch is out of my system. To echo the vets in here, shut the fuck up until you post roll. If you ever post roll, that is. I will be right along side you quit for quit, if you commit WHOLLY.
Your mind is a lying, cheating, stealing whore. Your body is a saint. Now, who are YOU going to listen to?
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Hey - right now you have a decision to make. You're probably on track for your "3 a day" BS, looking forward to 2pm, body already in mild withdrawls. Here's an idea: you are going to have almost a 12 hour jump on the 3 day withdrawl window, how 'bout you roll with it?

In other words: 1) you're full of crap until you flush it. No, I didn't say throw it in the trash can, flush it. 2) quit romanticizing your addiction. Everyone here reads right through your post to the TRUE author: your addiction. 3) ditto Soul below, holler when your nuts drop, we'll be quit with you, but until then, 4) you're funny, thinking you can BS a room full of BS'ers.

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I took my life back at 6:55pm on June 8, 2011.

My HOF speech
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Texasheat,
By now you have probably read all the ass kicking responses to your original post.....and you may be a little pissed at them for posting it. But let me tell you something......they are a group of guys that have some good insight into what you are going through and they are actually trying to help you!

I have to be honest here and let you know your original post had my interested.....then when I read post two about typing with a friggin lip in I wanted to punch my computer screen! You posted to a bunch of guys that are addicted to dip that you are enjoying a friggin fattie! What were you thinking man?!?!?!?

All I can tell you is that these guys will not bust your balls anymore once you post roll! Just post it and be honest that you flushed the cans and they.....and I....will congratulate you! We've all been through the "cut back" though process to quitting and know where you are at.......we are just calling you out on it becuase you need to hear it! There is no such thing as quitting with nic in your system at all.....even the gum or that patch! I know a guy who went from dipping to gum and now instead of a $30 a week addiction to skoal he has a $50 a week addiction to nicorette!!!!

Just quit! And post roll!
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Texasheat - Let me be clear. As in crystal clear. There is only one way to quit. One way and only one way. It is called.......... COLD TURKEY. That is right. If you really want to quit, then flush your shit now and post roll and quit one day at a time. If so, I will support you 100%. If not, then fuck you. You are wasting my time. Am I not clear? Let me expand. The notion of gradual cessation is how the Bitch lies to you. It does not work. Trust me. Before KTC, I tried this method numerous times only to FAIL. How so? OK, I had a rule that said no lip before 2PM, then only one an hour until bed. After a week, bump up an hour. Worked for two weeks. Then one fine morning, I received some very stressful bad news and lo and behold, threw in a lip. So much for my plan, which effectively ended that day. Again. NIC LIES. She tells you that cessation works because she knows, unlike you, that her claws are still in you. It soothes you to "quit" this way, because you put off the physical discomfort of nicotine cessation. Shit hits the fan? You'll be putting in a fat one before you can say WTF. So let me conclude. ONLY ONE WAY TO QUIT Amigo, and that is cold turkey.
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I entered the HOF on September 2, 2011, at 7:08 AM CST. My HOF Speech
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but edited for reality by wastepanel,Sep 6, 2011, 11:06 pm
The Decision.


It is 1:58 on September 8, 2011.  I have tried backing down my intake and I am failing.  I am writing this right now with a lip in and am patting myself on the back for giving this the old college try.  At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip). 

To prepare,  I threw in a chew the moment I woke up.  I usually throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee.  Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day. 

Mental Note:  That is an awful way to start a day.  You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with.  When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.

My target goal is to get those real quitters on the KTC to accept me for what I am:  a weakass punk that isn't trying to quit.  This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency.  My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm.  Also, to only allow 3 maximum. I will fail, but it's about trying, right?

Philosophy:

Blah blah blah  Words blah.  I love to chew.  blah blah

Spiritual Notes: 

Everyone has a part of themselves they love.  This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow.  I love the cancer that I am fertilizing in my lip right now.

Fixed your post.

You ready to come aboard yet?
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

I am not cured. I will quit one day at a time. I will continue to do what works. Posting roll everyday. To do otherwise would be foolish on my part. You can do this-Ready 12/11

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

Theres a lot of people that come here, especially vets, that WANT to be reminded that they are addicts.-Tarpon 6/12

Just as a building starts with architectural drawings. Your daily quit begins with a promise.-Scowick 2/13

Here and now, focused on today, minute by minute, whatever it takes, I promise to all my bros and myself not to become a negative stat and stay quit!-krok 1/15

I want everyone to be quit. Even the assholes.-Probe1957 1/18

Try walkin' your talk or get the fuck out of my way-A Perfect Circle (TalkTalk)
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Day Three of Quit.


I have been extremely busy with school, baseball, and work. Sorry I did not have a chance to post my Day 2. If I had posted my Day 2, I would not of caught the seemingly endless amount of flack falling from my original post.

When I made that first post, it was more like someone who had the realization they needed to have in order to make an honest effort in making their life better. Much like an addict going to an AA meeting, yet still being influenced by the drug.

At least I walked through the door declaring to not only myself, but all of you, that I indeed have quite the problem on my hands that must be fixed. I am sorry that I stressed many of you that are in the process of quitting, and I apologize for being disrespectful in that way.

I have not packed a lip since that post and am still going pretty strong. They say that day 3 is the most difficult but I would have to disagree. Sure, I want to throw in a lip on the train, in this library, in the bathroom...literally anywhere. But I am keeping my hitting streak alive and have tacked on a couple more hours.

For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself. It's just your body saying,"Yo, what's going on? I am not used to this." Therefore, you are going to be uncomfortable with anything that is going on. It's not the chew that's making you go through all that stress...it's you. It's your body literally putting words in your head making you believe that you are stressed because of the chew.

Day 3


I have learned to tell the difference between my true self and my physical self. My physical self is the voice in my head that says its time to go to the bathroom, eat food, I'm tired, time to wake up, time to throw in a chew. It's almost like that part of my inner-talk is like a reptile. It simply eats, goes to the bathroom, has sex, and sleeps, and lets you know when those things need to happen. Then there is my true self, the one that is the driver to the physical body.

This is the voice in my head that says this is right or wrong, what do I need to do today to be successful?, what makes me happy? This voice has told me hundreds of times that chew is bad and to stop. But I listen to my body instead because it becomes uncomfortable when it is in an unfamiliar place. The longer I go without a chew, the easier it becomes to just listen to my true self and let my inner light guide me.

When I do that, I actually forget about quitting. I forget about dip and all of that. It's because my true self becomes more powerful in simply telling my body,"I don't dip." Every minute I go, it becomes way easier to just act like it was never a part of my life. When I ignore my physical body/talk, I do things that truly make me happy. This activity I choose naturally releases dopamine and I become happy and reverse my addiction. I am still rewiring my dopamine circuits to fire without the use of nicotine as a dopamine antagonist.

I am trying to have a scientific lab rat approach to my quit, and I am the experiment. So far I am on Day 3 and feeling pretty good.

Noted Material.


You know when you freak out over having a chew? When I do, I start laughing and finding things hilarious. I can either get pissed about not having a chew, and go down that road, which sucks a bag of you know what. Or say, I don't dip (true self talk)...so what the hell can I do to make me happy right now. So far, it's consisted of telling retarded jokes to my girlfriend that I find hilarious. Or last night, I wanted to chew and watch the TV but didn't, and I thought it was SO FUNNY when CNN played a video of Mitt Romney giving this rally speech and in the back-round was the debt ceiling calculator just going into the trillions of dollars. Obvious attack to Obama.


Gotta go trains leaving.


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Sep 8, 2011, 3:49 pm
Day Three of Quit.


I have been extremely busy with school, baseball, and work. Sorry I did not have a chance to post my Day 2. If I had posted my Day 2, I would not of caught the seemingly endless amount of flack falling from my original post.

When I made that first post, it was more like someone who had the realization they needed to have in order to make an honest effort in making their life better. Much like an addict going to an AA meeting, yet still being influenced by the drug.

At least I walked through the door declaring to not only myself, but all of you, that I indeed have quite the problem on my hands that must be fixed. I am sorry that I stressed many of you that are in the process of quitting, and I apologize for being disrespectful in that way.

I have not packed a lip since that post and am still going pretty strong. They say that day 3 is the most difficult but I would have to disagree. Sure, I want to throw in a lip on the train, in this library, in the bathroom...literally anywhere. But I am keeping my hitting streak alive and have tacked on a couple more hours.

For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself. It's just your body saying,"Yo, what's going on? I am not used to this." Therefore, you are going to be uncomfortable with anything that is going on. It's not the chew that's making you go through all that stress...it's you. It's your body literally putting words in your head making you believe that you are stressed because of the chew.

Day 3


I have learned to tell the difference between my true self and my physical self. My physical self is the voice in my head that says its time to go to the bathroom, eat food, I'm tired, time to wake up, time to throw in a chew. It's almost like that part of my inner-talk is like a reptile. It simply eats, goes to the bathroom, has sex, and sleeps, and lets you know when those things need to happen. Then there is my true self, the one that is the driver to the physical body.

This is the voice in my head that says this is right or wrong, what do I need to do today to be successful?, what makes me happy? This voice has told me hundreds of times that chew is bad and to stop. But I listen to my body instead because it becomes uncomfortable when it is in an unfamiliar place. The longer I go without a chew, the easier it becomes to just listen to my true self and let my inner light guide me.

When I do that, I actually forget about quitting. I forget about dip and all of that. It's because my true self becomes more powerful in simply telling my body,"I don't dip." Every minute I go, it becomes way easier to just act like it was never a part of my life. When I ignore my physical body/talk, I do things that truly make me happy. This activity I choose naturally releases dopamine and I become happy and reverse my addiction. I am still rewiring my dopamine circuits to fire without the use of nicotine as a dopamine antagonist.

I am trying to have a scientific lab rat approach to my quit, and I am the experiment. So far I am on Day 3 and feeling pretty good.

Noted Material.


You know when you freak out over having a chew? When I do, I start laughing and finding things hilarious. I can either get pissed about not having a chew, and go down that road, which sucks a bag of you know what. Or say, I don't dip (true self talk)...so what the hell can I do to make me happy right now. So far, it's consisted of telling retarded jokes to my girlfriend that I find hilarious. Or last night, I wanted to chew and watch the TV but didn't, and I thought it was SO FUNNY when CNN played a video of Mitt Romney giving this rally speech and in the back-round was the debt ceiling calculator just going into the trillions of dollars. Obvious attack to Obama.


Gotta go trains leaving.

You are making it way more complicated than it has to be.

1) post roll everyday- I will not dip today
2)tomorrow repeat
3) chat with brothers and hold each other accountable

That is it, simply dont dip today
Quit Date -Aug 15, 2011
HOF-------- Nov 22, 2011
2nd Floor--Mar 1, 2012
3rd Floor--Jun 8, 2012
One year--Aug 15, 2012
4th floor--Sep 16, 2012
5th floor--Dec 17th, 2012
6th floor--Mar 27th, 2013
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It really sounds like you are on a journey TexasHoot. I see a lot of aspects of myself in your writing. The obstacles, the lessons learned, the genius penned in each sentence. You have me transfixed. I will admit my slight obsession with your introduction and look forward to more entries daily. There is one thing I would add to your process, which by all observations is clearly as close to perfection as can be obtained from such a wise young man, post fucking roll asshat. Otherwise, go dribble this inner rectal journey somewhere far more appropriate like the wall of the middle stall at the local greyhound station. Sweet baby jesus did you read anything in the 'Welcome Center'? Do you know how this place works? Come on kid. Don't let me down here. Show me that you actually aren't a special butterfly. Show me you actually have a backbone behind all this literary prowess. I need some refreshing passion. Heal me.
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Sep 8, 2011, 5:24 pm
It really sounds like you are on a journey TexasHoot. I see a lot of aspects of myself in your writing. The obstacles, the lessons learned, the genius penned in each sentence. You have me transfixed. I will admit my slight obsession with your introduction and look forward to more entries daily. There is one thing I would add to your process, which by all observations is clearly as close to perfection as can be obtained from such a wise young man, post fucking roll asshat. Otherwise, go dribble this inner rectal journey somewhere for more appropriate like the wall of the middle stall at the local greyhound station. Sweet baby jesus did you read anything in the 'Welcome Center'? Do you know how this place works? Come on kid. Don't let me down here. Show me that you actually aren't a special butterfly. Show me you actually have a backbone behind all this literary prowess. I need some refreshing passion. Heal me.

A FUCKING MEN!!!!!
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Sep 8, 2011, 3:49 pm


For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself.






I think you missed the point. He wanted to punch the screen because you were being a douchebag. Also, your frilly, elaborate wording isn't as important as the bottom line. Your fucking quit, today! If you treat this like a "lab rat" experiment, you will not succeed because you are not a fucking rat, you are a human.
Your mind is a lying, cheating, stealing whore. Your body is a saint. Now, who are YOU going to listen to?
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i smell epic fail.
any day what ends in "y" is a good day to be quit... hay man today ends in "y"

man if all your gonna do is post statis updates, stick to the face book and tweeter. you wanna quit with me? then gosh darn it post roll.

hof speechin or the best dam intro thred. and your all ways wellcome over to the party bus a quit

my thots on when to leave kill the can and my very own words a wisdom
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TexasHeat
Sep 8, 2011, 3:49 pm


For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen.  I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit.  It's just chew.  It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis.  Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself. 






I think you missed the point. He wanted to punch the screen because you were being a douchebag. Also, your frilly, elaborate wording isn't as important as the bottom line. Your fucking quit, today! If you treat this like a "lab rat" experiment, you will not succeed because you are not a fucking rat, you are a human.

You hit the nail on the fucking head with that one! I was the poster about punching the screen. I was not "stressed" because of the thought of dip. I was actually upset because you just were not getting it! Again I repeat myself.....why hell would you post to a bunch of guys addicted to nicotene that you had a fattie in while you were typing! I'm quit......and strong in my quit at that! I was not thinking of punchin the screen because I was wanting a dip......it was becaue I honestly thought you were that stupid and needed a wake up!!!!! 'bang head'

I honestly hope and support you in your quit! If you need to do the "lab rat" routine in your mind to stay quit go for it! But the bottom line is the basics.....post role and stay accountable!
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"I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew."

Sorry.......Had to reply one more time to your above quip. How the hell would you know if my mentality is strong enough!?!?!? Im on day 32 and you are under 5 days! We'll see who is on the 100 day list my friend. Also you state its just chew!!!!! Yeah.....as soon as you realize it is more than just chew you'll have a shot at staying quit! Its not just chew.....its an addiction to drug called nicotene........similar to an addiction to any other drug. The difference is nic is legal and does not impare your abillity to function as much as illegal drugs.......the addiction is still there though!!!! Good luck texas heat......keep reading on this site and I think you'll figure it out.
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