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| Time to Grow a Spine; Quit for Good | |
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| Tweet Topic Started: Apr 15 2010, 06:02 PM (6,142 Views) | |
| CaseyG | Apr 21 2010, 02:15 PM Post #16 |
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Musha rain dum-a-do-dum-a-dah, yeah,yeah
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Dip Rage ain't she a bitch. Hang in there. |
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QD 7/21/09 -- HOF 10/28/09 -- 8 YEARS 7/20/17 | |
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| teamgreen | Apr 21 2010, 02:18 PM Post #17 |
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Two Bit Whore
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'crackup' Mmmmm, delicious dip rage. Drink it in. Also: Drivers are WAY more moronic. Seriously? Grocery store cashiers were NEVER this fucking slow before. Has everybody always been this smug and joyful about me being miserable? Fuckers. On the positive side, I've acquired a new power with which I can predict how fucking stupid the next thing someone says is going to be with a 99.9% success rate. As it turns out, 99.9% of what people say to me is mind-numbingly predictable, stupid and irritating as fuckall! And I, the great Kreskin, can predict this! Stupid world doesn't know it's stupid. Stupid! Seriously, while I'm in a little funk right now, I have had periods where the world gets properly paced, smarter, nicer and less hell-bent on cock-blocking my happiness, believe it or not! It does get better, as they say. Rock on quitter! |
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Quitting is the most important thing you'll do today. Caving is not an option. | |
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| GlennFtheKodiak | Apr 21 2010, 05:40 PM Post #18 |
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you can call me Rockface
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'bang head' Dip is for fags. Just remember that. |
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football rules, soccer drools HOF: July 7th, 2009 | |
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| kneedragger | Apr 21 2010, 07:07 PM Post #19 |
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That's some funny shit man. I needed that...thanks for the post. -KD |
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Quit Date - 3/15/11 HOF Date - 6/22/11 HOF Speech: Welcome to My Spy Movie My Life as a Quitter: Time to Grow a Spine | |
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| Greg5280 | Apr 21 2010, 11:13 PM Post #20 |
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Bonafied Quit Beast
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Some good ass dip rage right there... I love it |
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It's not that some people have willpower and some don't... It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. NEVER AGAIN !! "I have been down here before, I know the way out. " There is a huge difference between a commitment of 99% and a commitment of 100% Quit Date: 10-30-2009 : HOF Date: 2-7-2010 : One Year: 10-30-2010 : Two Years: 10-30-2011 : Comma 7-25-2012 : Three Years 10-30-2012 : Four Years 10-30-2013 : Five Years 10-30-2014 : Double Comma 4-21-2015 : Six Years 10-30-2015 : Seven Years 10-30-2016 : Eight Years 10-30-2017 : My HOF Speech | |
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| kneedragger | Apr 22 2010, 03:43 PM Post #21 |
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Feels Good to Play the Blues I’m used to playing piano at least a little bit every day and I frequently play for hours at a time. But, in the past, I also frequently dipped while I was playing. Over the last two weeks, I’ve stayed away from the piano because I was worried about it being a trigger for me. I didn’t know how strong the association would be between playing and dipping. I was worried about not being able to concentrate; not being able to make progress as quickly as I used to. I was scared to see evidence of something that I won’t be as good at without dip. I’ve practiced sporadically during my quit, but definitely not every day. I even cancelled my last lesson because I hadn’t been practicing regularly and I didn’t think it was worth the money. I was really starting to worry that it was going to be a long time before I could get back to enjoying playing again. Last night, I figured I was safe to sit and play since my wife was reading in the living room. I played through a couple of easy blues tunes, sticking mostly to stuff I knew really well. I figured I’d save myself the frustration of trying to work on something new that would require more concentration. But after a few minutes, I really felt like I was playing pretty well. I decided to try a boogie blues pattern I was working on right before I quit. It was up-tempo and I’d been struggling with the chord changes. But for some reason, something clicked last night and I was able to really get a groove going with this boogie pattern. I even started doing a little improv over the left-hand bass line. I was so psyched to see my playing progress, I thought I was gonna break down and cry like a little bitch. Just one more step in slowing proving to myself that there’s nothing I can’t do without dip. |
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Quit Date - 3/15/11 HOF Date - 6/22/11 HOF Speech: Welcome to My Spy Movie My Life as a Quitter: Time to Grow a Spine | |
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| Greg5280 | Apr 22 2010, 03:52 PM Post #22 |
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Bonafied Quit Beast
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It is amazing what your mind can do when it is not clouded over with Nicotine... Keep quitting, you will be amazed at all the things you can do without it. |
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It's not that some people have willpower and some don't... It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. NEVER AGAIN !! "I have been down here before, I know the way out. " There is a huge difference between a commitment of 99% and a commitment of 100% Quit Date: 10-30-2009 : HOF Date: 2-7-2010 : One Year: 10-30-2010 : Two Years: 10-30-2011 : Comma 7-25-2012 : Three Years 10-30-2012 : Four Years 10-30-2013 : Five Years 10-30-2014 : Double Comma 4-21-2015 : Six Years 10-30-2015 : Seven Years 10-30-2016 : Eight Years 10-30-2017 : My HOF Speech | |
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| g8tr311 | Apr 22 2010, 07:48 PM Post #23 |
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So glad to hear that noticing how stupid and trivial most people's comments seem throughout the day is normal during nic rages. I have trouble listening to my fiance and I have only quit for a day.... can't imagine what it will be like tomorrow.... |
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| Greg5280 | Apr 22 2010, 08:03 PM Post #24 |
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Bonafied Quit Beast
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The first three days suck ass... !! No easy way to say it. Make it past the first three days and the NIC is gone. Then you just have to learn how to make your mind work again. NEVER take your frustrations out on your fiance or your family. They have no clue what its like to quit this shit. Come in here and vent, we can take it but more importantly we can relate to what you are going through and we can help you through it. I tell all the new guys to keep a journal. When you think you want to go back to dipping pull out your journal and get to reading. And.. do not worry about tomorrow. We do this one day at a time. Today. |
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It's not that some people have willpower and some don't... It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. NEVER AGAIN !! "I have been down here before, I know the way out. " There is a huge difference between a commitment of 99% and a commitment of 100% Quit Date: 10-30-2009 : HOF Date: 2-7-2010 : One Year: 10-30-2010 : Two Years: 10-30-2011 : Comma 7-25-2012 : Three Years 10-30-2012 : Four Years 10-30-2013 : Five Years 10-30-2014 : Double Comma 4-21-2015 : Six Years 10-30-2015 : Seven Years 10-30-2016 : Eight Years 10-30-2017 : My HOF Speech | |
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| PbKid | Apr 22 2010, 11:36 PM Post #25 |
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Quit Wizard
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Greg's right. You will be amazed. Jacked for you right now, though. This sounds like a really big one, man. And a serious reason to be quit and be happy. Chew doesn't define us. |
| ...when you are suffering on some gnarly hillclimb, clinging onto the wheel in front of you for dear life, pray you don't get dropped. | |
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| kneedragger | Apr 27 2010, 10:00 AM Post #26 |
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Last night was interesting...
For those of you who don't know it when you see it, this is called therapy. What you don't know is all the things that went wrong at work that day, that I forgot my umbrella and had to commute home in the rain, that I felt like every person on the subway was trying their hardest to get in my way, that I was hungry, my blood sugar was low, my back was tense, I was a frayed bundle of nerves…etc, etc, blah blah blah. Look, I was nic ragin like a little bitchy girl who got grounded on prom night. I was irrational and flat out wrong to be mad at anybody. But the point is, I was on a hair trigger and was typing out the above message furiously as I heard the door open to our apt. My lovely and innocent wife had just entered the apt and was unknowingly walking directly into the lion’s den. I could have ripped her head off…it would have been so easy and sort of gratifying in a self indulgent sort of way. But the damage would have been so hard to repair. She doesn’t know what I’m feeling. She can try her hardest, and she would, but she’d just never understand and some part of her would always feel like she had done something to upset me, that it was somehow her fault. God, how awful would that be. Can you imagine after the nic rage passed, I would have been left with so much guilt. It would have been hard to bare. But I didn’t have to. So many of the KTC guys had already told me where to go when I felt the way I felt last night. I came to the boards and let it out. And it wasn’t a moment too soon. I hit add reply and felt a lot better. Really, surprisingly better. I wanted to tell the world to fuck off and I had place that I could do it. It made all the difference. I hugged my wife and told her I was having a tough night. I was sorry, but she should probably give me a little space. Just for tonight. I hope you understand. She absolutely understood…thank god. Thank KTC. |
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Quit Date - 3/15/11 HOF Date - 6/22/11 HOF Speech: Welcome to My Spy Movie My Life as a Quitter: Time to Grow a Spine | |
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| GlennFtheKodiak | Apr 27 2010, 10:31 AM Post #27 |
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you can call me Rockface
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It will get easier. Soon the thoughts of a dip to cure whatever is ailing you will seem ridiculous. You will laugh in the face of tobacco. You will see "that kid" riding next to you on the Subway with his faggy pepsi bottle, spittin' in it. and you will say, "man what a douche he looks like". |
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football rules, soccer drools HOF: July 7th, 2009 | |
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| kneedragger | Apr 29 2010, 03:59 PM Post #28 |
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Day 18 - this site was officially no fuckin' help to me today. fog thicker than ever, rage fuckin sucks - every time i tried to read some posts i just kept finding myself sayin' what the fuck are these guys talkin' about. some guy posted a bunch of ones and zeros and called it a binary solo...that's when I knew I was in the wrong place Chewed out DJS on the boards for something he said to Samcat...cant' remember what he said...felt like shit about it though...I can be a real dick at times. Fuck, third week officially sucks. Not worried about caving at all...i feel like shit, but i don't find myself thinking i must have dip to feel better. it's more like i feel like shit and there's nothing i can do about. maybe that's what passes for progress around here. Fuck I got a conference call I gotta get on...I was gonna write about my first dip dream. Guess I'll have to do that after the call. fuck you. |
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| kneedragger | Apr 29 2010, 05:28 PM Post #29 |
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Dip dream - maybe one of the weirdest dreams I've ever had. pulled into a gas station and had the attendant fill up my tri-cycle. not sure why i was driving a tri-cycle, but I wasn't the only one. there was a tri-cycle at every pump. anyway, I walked into the store and came out with a tin of copenhagen. i set it on the seat and opened it up and me and the attendant were just staring at it. not saying anything, just looking at it, like we were trying to figure out what it was. so then i picked it up and took it over to the grass and dumped it out. I put the empty tin in my pocket and told the attendant that i'll use it to hold my chewing gum. then i drove off on my tri-cycle. not sure what any of this means, especially since i always dipped skoal mint. i think most people freak at dip dreams because they actually dip in their dreams, and it's so life like that they wake up thinking they caved. well, i didn't dip in my dream, so maybe it doesn't count. fuck you if you don't like my dream. |
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| rkymtnman | Apr 29 2010, 05:33 PM Post #30 |
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redneck
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LOL - rage on brother. You should know better than to go out on he town and visit those fancy lingere shops with TCOPE. That shit will fuck you up for weeks! Now you know better. |
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Nevertheless, in the tough moments in my quit, I think of the promise I made earlier that day and what it represents. It anchors my quit to the most solid place in my addiction-controlled brain - my sense of integrity. --Bobchap ...you are not going to fix many years of stupid in a couple hundred days. Those expectations are way too high. -Redtrain14 Don't let your EGO get in the way of your REALITY | |
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