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Re: It came outa nowhere...
« Reply #95 on: October 15, 2018, 08:52:46 PM »
Had a crazy crave this weekend.  Cooking 2000 chickens for the high school fundraiser.  Started at 0430.  Four fire pits, me, and 15 or so good ol boys.  I was talking to this one feller when he pulled his can out and got a knuckle deep three finger wad and packed his lip so tight it was shiny.  I stood there salivating and before I knew it I was itching for one, lip all twitching.  I texted the boys in my regular group.  Then, I called a brother in for reinforcement. Needed a verbal, audible, not gonna chew today statement.  And my brother took the call and heard me out and talked me back from the ledge. The big difference between me now and 288 days ago is that I would have succumbed to the "well, just one won't hurt" temptation. Not now.  Not today. Not for any reason. I hope all you out there have a quit brother in your back pocket who'll take a call at an inconvenient hour. I'm glad I did.

I thank you for posting this Athan.  I know I have said this before, but seeing these posts as a youngster in my quit remind me to never let my guard down.  Sitting here on day 85, I appreciate you typing this out and strengthening my quit not only today, but down the road as well.
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It came outa nowhere...
« Reply #94 on: October 15, 2018, 05:10:44 PM »
Had a crazy crave this weekend.  Cooking 2000 chickens for the high school fundraiser.  Started at 0430.  Four fire pits, me, and 15 or so good ol boys.  I was talking to this one feller when he pulled his can out and got a knuckle deep three finger wad and packed his lip so tight it was shiny.  I stood there salivating and before I knew it I was itching for one, lip all twitching.  I texted the boys in my regular group.  Then, I called a brother in for reinforcement. Needed a verbal, audible, not gonna chew today statement.  And my brother took the call and heard me out and talked me back from the ledge. The big difference between me now and 288 days ago is that I would have succumbed to the "well, just one won't hurt" temptation. Not now.  Not today. Not for any reason. I hope all you out there have a quit brother in your back pocket who'll take a call at an inconvenient hour. I'm glad I did.
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The Battle
« Reply #93 on: September 29, 2018, 04:46:59 AM »
There once was a young quitter..
Named Chris87
While stumbling through hell...
He caught sight of heaven...
HELP ME! he cried
Is there anyone there?
but all he heard
Was the sound of despair
But then he heard, faint as a whisper
A young quitter named wang, caught in the same shitter
But it wasn't Wang, it was a quitter named Voldex
Whose hogg was so large, twas said he had two necks
so they got together
they called the bitch out
and they did their battle, those two trouser trout
She tried to assail them
She played with their brains
she planted fond memories
of tobacco stains
But she couldn't divide them
These brothers of quit
They'd bonded together
Weren't taking her shit
They shared their digits
And they posted roll
when sunlight descended
They commanded their knoll
The lesson learned here
pay attention lads
When you stand together
She'll kiss your nads!
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ODAAT
« Reply #92 on: September 29, 2018, 04:46:13 AM »
09/11/2018
From Mambo (June '18)
"...Every day is a struggle which is why we say ODDAT. Addiction has no term limit."
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Planes, trains, and automobiles
« Reply #91 on: September 29, 2018, 04:45:44 AM »
09 Sep 2018
252. Planes, trains, and automobiles all without nicotine. Called my good friend UncleRico and let him know I'd be in the neighborhood. So he puts the word on the street and Kdip rolls in with Gregor as well. We had over 5000 days of quit at the table, and single handedly raised the sex appeal of the establishment and quite possibly the city of Katy,Texas! Yessireebob it was an impromptu quitter meetup of epic proportions. Wish y'all coulda been there!
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a round silhouette, a slave
« Reply #90 on: September 29, 2018, 04:44:56 AM »
07 Sep 2018
I'm in line at the store and what do I see but a round silhouette on the jeans before me.
I shook my head there in disbelief, of the life in front of me given in to the thief.
I whipped out my phone and captured the scene, to pass to quit brothers the folly I'd seen.
The man before me a slave, although willing, for what lay before him indeed was chilling:
A life of bondage, a life in chains, of looking to spit, of tobacco stains;
Of wondering if he had enough of it left, Oh the anxiety of a life bereft.
Such men I pity, how they wander alone, all while addiction eats them to the bone.
But not Athan, oh not I! I've DONE IT man, I didn't just try!
I'm sailing new waters, but not alone and frail,
I have my quit brothers, they're the wind in my sails.
I've changed my course, I've conquered new ground,
I've heard freedoms song and I love the sound.

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June
« Reply #89 on: September 28, 2018, 09:43:51 AM »
05 Sep 2018
I'm not a smart man but I know what Quit is
Forrest Quit

“I quit, therefore I am”
Desquittes

“Hard. It’s a word used by the weak to describe that which requires effort”

You’ll never regret quitting. You will ALWAYS regret a cave.

“If quitting is wrong I don’t wanna be right”

“If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep quitting.”
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I set out one day to find enemies, and I found no friends.
I set out one day to find friends, and I found no enemies.
You will find that which you truly seek. Set your heart therefore on being quit.

“To quit or not to quit, that is the question.”
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The devil is roaming devouring souls like a lion EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE. Fight. Fight. Fight.”
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Vini Vidi Quiti
(we came, we saw, we quit)
Julius Quitter, or was it Quiteus Caesar?

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How we respond to things will always be within our grasp.”
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QuitNWinay's victory
« Reply #88 on: September 28, 2018, 09:42:49 AM »
From QuitNWinay 9/4/18:
...I met this cousin who's a champion dipper. As the coversation went, he blamed the high school bunch for his dipping addiction. Some people just don't get it - I am not an addict because of bad parenting. Or because of a sport, or the kids I hung out with at school. It is not because of my occupation, neither because life found a way of kicking me in the nuts every now and then. Or because of the way dip is marketed and sold at gas stations. The can never ever jumped off the shelf, into my pocket or into my mouth. I made that decision of buying the can every damn day. Paid with my hard earned money to keep the addiction going. I was an addict because I loved tobacco. Because, I thought I could remain functional only with that bitch in my mouth. I fuelled my addiction by not ever seriously giving up on tobacco - till 48 days ago!

It is important to understand and acknowledge that it is only me that is to blame for my addiction - OWN UP!!! I think that's the first step towards a new life!
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Post HOF caves
« Reply #87 on: September 28, 2018, 09:41:15 AM »
31 Aug 2018
So I'm well past the HOF now (from my perspective). I'm realizing that there are distinct stages of the quit. Each one like some new plateau or vista that I just could not see from where I started. The post HOF funk was real, and there have actually been one or two 'craves'. I'd call them periods of intense frustration or anxiety. Lately though I'm seeing in the post HOF groups some people fading away. And the stage that I'm seeing now is the returning cavers. Had two guys text me just this week about that very thing. While I cannot condone the early caves; it is absolutely staggering to me that someone would use post HOF. I just can't wrap my head around it. That's like graduating High School and FORGETTING how to read. Un-friggin-believable.

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She STILL invades my sleep
« Reply #86 on: September 28, 2018, 09:40:34 AM »
10 Aug 18
222 days and a dip dream last night. Staggering that they still invade my sleep. I can't remember the context but a quit brother was with me though I couldn't see his face. We dove into the can packing our lips full of it.
The pleasure lasted seconds before the wave of shame and humiliation swept over me and I couldn't spit it out fast enough. The dip barnacles were clinging to my lip and I couldn't get them off. I was close to retching when I finally came to. Jeez I hate those. Still, it's a good reminder of why I'm on the path that I'm on.
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100 days of sobriety
« Reply #85 on: September 28, 2018, 09:39:44 AM »
08 Aug 2018 – From my friend JGromo on the occasion of me reaching 100 days of sobriety
100 days sober...Brother I can't put into words how proud I am of you. You are a completely different man than you were this time last year. You are on the right path to living well into your future grandchildren's lives. Your family must be honored to count themselves as blood relatives to the legend that is Athan. I'll raise my glass of arnold palmer to you brother, to one more day of living nic free, one more day of staying clear of the booze and one more day of healthy eating. You've given me the strength to continue on countless times and I hope that I can do the same for you one day!
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Why We Quit
« Reply #84 on: September 27, 2018, 08:35:22 AM »
18 Jul 2018
Why we quit
It has been said that Hell is seeing the man God created you to be standing before the man that you are. I think for a lot of addicts, that is the tipping point. The addict behavior in and of itself is repugnant to men for it is the epitome of weakness. All that it entails, the lying to self and others, the financial loss, the health risks, the willfully subservient attitude, is no different than that of a maggot mindlessly crawling in the dust in search of its next fix. For many of us, we could no longer reconcile what we had become with that which we wished to be as fathers, as husbands, as men.

Fatherhood is a responsibility all its own, unequalled in that which is bestowed upon men. There’s not a man among us who would purchase tobacco products for our children, yet we used in front of them. For many, that was a dichotomy no longer bearable. To be sure evil will enter this world, but woe to him through whom it comes; better a millstone were hung about his neck and he were thrown into the sea. Clearly our children will learn the vices of this world, but it doesn’t have to come about of our own volition. We now exhibit behavior worthy of emulation.

A husband also has responsibilities to his wife, among which are fidelity, honesty, and acting in a manner worthy of respect. For many addicts, all three of these suffered and eroded under the weight of addiction. Many a man has lied to his spouse about tobacco, has been deceitful in its acquisition and use, and about the money spent on it. All too often, for too many men, what should have been our first love has gone to bed alone playing second fiddle to a can while we stayed up late for just one more. This is not how many of us envisioned our marriages to be. We are now respectable men our wives are proud of, no longer ducking away from our family or hiding a lipper at social gatherings or functions.

Lastly, there is something intrinsic in manhood that demands a man be honest with himself. For many of us, when the quit is set upon, the nicotine addiction is but the first stone overturned. Having now sharpened the focus of the lens of introspection, other cracks and flaws come into view as other stones are overturned. We begin to see with clarity and introspective honesty the contradictions and compromises that we have made at the expense of our integrity, at the very essence of what it means for us to be men. The view for many of us is not pretty: alcohol and/or drug abuse, financial mismanagement, gluttony, laziness, pornography, gambling addiction, profanity, adultery, etc. etc. The process by which we’ve arrived here serves us well in this respect: we are now able to acknowledge and deal with these shortcomings. These flaws of character constitute the gaps to the men that we were created by God to be. Unlike lesser men, we have consciously altered our course, we have changed our trajectory and are now headed towards that which we are destined to become. We are destined to become better fathers, better husbands, better MEN.

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Winning!
« Reply #83 on: September 27, 2018, 08:34:04 AM »
17 Jul 2018
A big win! Scrolling through the medical form when I got to the part regarding nicotine usage - I got to write "oh hell no!"

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2,000
« Reply #82 on: September 27, 2018, 08:33:12 AM »
26 Jun 2018
From Worktowin on 2,000:
"2,000 days. Wow. I remember seeing day counts like this and thinking... no fucking way dude. I don't believe it. Not possible. Well, it is possible. It really isn't even that hard after you push through the start and learn how this place works. Make connections. Make friends. Build a network. POST ROLL EVERY DAY. No exceptions. HONOR YOUR WORD. Quit as a team. Brotherhood + Accountability."
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Reflections
« Reply #81 on: September 27, 2018, 08:32:02 AM »
26 June 2018
From Eric71, reflections on 6 years:
"...Time and opportunity will not pause to wait on us to get our shit in order. The world is not that patient. Don't be hesitant in your quit. Don't be passive in your endeavors. Don't let your fire burn out. This is your here and now, every day, every moment, we have the chance to make life better for ourselves and those we allow in our world. Do we want to look back and wish for time long since past, or do we want to remember the instances we chose to show our fire, passion, and love for our life? "
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