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Introductions / Re: Hello hello
« Last post by arrakisdq on Today at 06:09:24 AM »
I was halfway through and accidentally deleted it all.  Blah.

I pulled into a parking spot at one of the many softball fields I played at.  I was 29, and my gf left her tin of Skoal pouches in my car.  I popped one in, to see the what all the fuss was about.  I got the head rush, almost threw up, but felt this instantly good feeling.  That was the start...

My first 5 years were sporadic.  She would buy it and I would ration like 3 pouches/day, as I didnít want to buy it myself.  I teach in the town I live, so I didnít want people seeing.

When we broke up, one would think that would be the end.  Nope.  I just started venturing outside of town to buy and not care.  Make excuses to go for car rides, etc, just to get some more.  So for the last 5 years, Iíve been a regular user.  About a tin every 2 days.

Iíve tried many times in the past to quit.  Something always brings me back.
In 2015 I lost my grandfather.
In 2016, I suddenly lost my mother.
In 2017, my father in law finally ended his long painful battle with cancer.
In 2018... well, my stepkidsí Father got arrested, ended up dying, I bought a house, broke my hand and turned 40.  I also gave up alcohol for the year.  What better time to quit?  And relapse.  And quit again.  And relapse.  With each of these stressors cane another relapse.  So finally, here I am, using this site to keep me accountable, and Iím 63 days in.

This morning, I pulled into that same softball field from 11 years ago... and did not dip.  Like an alcoholic going into a favorite bar and drinking water... major victory.  Tomorrow brings new challenges, but I won today.

Thanks to arrakisdq for suggesting I write this!
That's great CoachK!  Nice win!

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Introductions / Re: Hello everyone Day 1
« Last post by thestinger on October 22, 2018, 09:51:45 PM »
Day 4

I've decided to use this post as kind of a journal of my journey.  (Wish I knew how to change the title)

Anyway here it goes.

I came here about 5 days ago with the plan to quit, but my plan was to slowly ween myself off of the stuff.  I signed up for the site and started reading some of the posts.  I noticed one common theme, you guys don't deal well with wussies.  I decided that if I was going to stay on the site and get the support that I truly needed, I was going to have to do it your way, cold turkey.  So the next day I signed roll and left for work, my can in my lunch box, but still resisting the urge.  I made it through the work day without using (luckily I was busy that day).  I got home and I gave my almost full can to my wife and said "Open the can, dump it in the toilet, flush the toilet, wash the can out in the sink, and throw it away"  I knew if I didn't have her wash the can I would be searching around for just a little "hit" later on.

It's only been 4 days of my quit, but this time it feels different.  I think that I want it more this time then I ever have, also you guys on this site have really helped me.  A big thank you to everyone that has texted me every day religiously, unfortunately I'm OCD so I never keep texts.  I know Bovie, Brian G, Keith, Mike W, anyone else that I have missed I'm sorry but I truly appreciate your help.

I thought of a couple more things on my way home from work.  Days 1-3, my lip where I used to put my dip was so sore I had troubles eating.  Here on DAY 4, it does not hurt at all, as a matter of fact, it feels to me like the bumps from dipping are getting smaller. 

My willpower today is pretty low, I don't think it would take much to make me cave other than I posted roll today and that is a promise that I WILL NOT break.  I will get up tomorrow morning, piss, and post roll before my willpower says to go buy a can.

All of you guests I see down at the bottom, yes you.  Take my advice, it is hard work, but if you do it right and talk to the people on here and read testimonials "posts", you too can be well on your way to being nicotine free.  The fog lifts after a couple of days and you start feeling "normal" again, a couple of days after that you start feeling better than "normal.  When you first sign up for this site, you will get a bunch of personal messages of people wanting to support you and your quit.  Make sure you give a least a few people your number.  As I stated earlier in this post, I have had quit buddies, dare I say friends I have never met in person, texting me every day to make sure I am doing well and giving me the strength to make sure I don't cave.  Now don't get me wrong, these same people that help you out will also give you a tongue lashing if you need it.

Well I think that's enough rambling for today, I am in for the night so there will be no caving for me.  I WILL make it to day 5 and I WILL post roll before I leave the house tomorrow.  That and all of the texts I get from my friends will get me through tomorrow, then I can worry about the next day.  ODAAT - sorry for any guests, that means One Day At A Time.
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Introductions / Re: Bout Time
« Last post by Bobby C on October 22, 2018, 09:02:36 PM »
I'm totally with you brother!  I quit with you!  Forever this time!  Bobby C - day 22.
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:07:53 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!

7:59 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #625

From: rdad

Awesome nine floors Trauma. Comma right around the corner! Sweet!

8:02 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #626

From: KingNothing

Congrats Trauma! Keep kicking ass brother!

11:45 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #628

From: Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat

Brother Trauma! Nice quit you got going on there brother! Through all you've gone through I really appreciate your quit. Most peeps would have already caved by what you've had to go through. I might have thought about it several times but you've taken that out of my thoughts. I want to thank you for that my brother. I know we kid around a lot through text messages but that is sincere and even though I'm ahead of you a few days you've set the bar for me to follow going forward!

Thanks for being a leader and setting that bar high! Quit on!

11:49 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #629

From: worktowin

Gratz bro. Keep kicking Dakota ass one day at a time. Proud to quit with you today.

2:45 PM - Oct 02, 2015 #630

From: ChristopherJ

Congrats on floor 9 Trauma - keep kicking ass. Proud to quit with you!

CJ
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:07:12 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!

7:59 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #625

From: rdad

Awesome nine floors Trauma. Comma right around the corner! Sweet!

8:02 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #626

From: KingNothing

Congrats Trauma! Keep kicking ass brother!

11:45 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #628

From: Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat

Brother Trauma! Nice quit you got going on there brother! Through all you've gone through I really appreciate your quit. Most peeps would have already caved by what you've had to go through. I might have thought about it several times but you've taken that out of my thoughts. I want to thank you for that my brother. I know we kid around a lot through text messages but that is sincere and even though I'm ahead of you a few days you've set the bar for me to follow going forward!

Thanks for being a leader and setting that bar high! Quit on!

11:49 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #629

From: worktowin

Gratz bro. Keep kicking Dakota ass one day at a time. Proud to quit with you today.
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:06:34 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!

7:59 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #625

From: rdad

Awesome nine floors Trauma. Comma right around the corner! Sweet!

8:02 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #626

From: KingNothing

Congrats Trauma! Keep kicking ass brother!

11:45 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #628

From: Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat

Brother Trauma! Nice quit you got going on there brother! Through all you've gone through I really appreciate your quit. Most peeps would have already caved by what you've had to go through. I might have thought about it several times but you've taken that out of my thoughts. I want to thank you for that my brother. I know we kid around a lot through text messages but that is sincere and even though I'm ahead of you a few days you've set the bar for me to follow going forward!

Thanks for being a leader and setting that bar high! Quit on!
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:05:30 PM »
9:52 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #627

First I would like to send out a prayer to the people of Roseburg this is a tragedy. I know the KTC community very well and I believe their power of prayer helped me get to where I am at today I would like everyone to focus their energy on the community of Roseburg. I know there are people in the KTC community that live close to the area my prayers today go out to you as well.

In closing Thanks everyone who stopped by today to wish me a great 900.
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:00:49 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!

7:59 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #625

From: rdad

Awesome nine floors Trauma. Comma right around the corner! Sweet!

8:02 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #626

From: KingNothing

Congrats Trauma! Keep kicking ass brother!
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 07:00:14 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!

7:59 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #625

From: rdad

Awesome nine floors Trauma. Comma right around the corner! Sweet!
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Introductions / Re: day 3
« Last post by traumagnet on October 22, 2018, 06:59:37 PM »
7:57 AM - Oct 02, 2015 #624

From: AppleJack

Happy 900 m'man!
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