After twenty + years I just threw my little buddy in the trash can along with what was left in my cheek.

He looked betrayed. I'm already feelin it. The worst is going to be after lunch in an hour and the long drive home.

Oh The Horror!

Dave.

Welcome, I did the exact same thing just a couple a hundred days back. Let us know how we can help.

Welcome and congrats on making a great decision. You will find the support you need if you are prepared to do the heavy lifting.

Sign roll and give your word that you will not use tobacco today. Then do it again tomorrow. The catch is that you have to be serious about quitting and a man of your word.

Buckle up it is going to be one hell of a ride. But a ride that is well worth the trials!

Thanks Eml and 11X4 for the welcome aboard.

Today was ruff. But I did not dip. Still cant figure out how to do roll call.

Very irritable today. border line angry at every little thing. I am very difficult to be around right now.

No cavage.

The triggers are the worst (after meals). Sunflower seeds are my friend. I can actually see me making it through this. Sure it's hard sometimes but I can see me staying quit.

I quit once a long time ago. It was because i got strep throat (Terrible sick for a week) and wasnt able to dip for about a week. After not dipping for a week it was pretty easy not to start back up.

Things are a little weird right now. But then again, they were weird before I quit.

LOL

Semper Fi.

Things are going well today. Cravings subsiding a bit. Settling into a new routine with seeds.

For those of you out there reading this and thinkin of quiting, DO IT!!!!! Do it NOW!!!!!

Got me the jitters today boy. Got a good case of the don't give a phucs as well. Don't have an overwhelming urge to dip tho. Dont want to do much of anything but get away from where I am right now. Destination? not here.



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Good times!

Stopped by the store on my way home yesterday. Same store I've stopped at a thousand times.

Got in line with two big ole bags of sunflower seeds. Picked up a pack of gum on the impulse buy shelf. My mind wondered and without thinking,,,,,,,

I looked over the counter to see if they had any twofers. They did and I got all excited for a second (The twofers were usually very fresh - mmmmmmmmmm). I then, quite undramatically, thought to myself.....Huh, I don't do that anymore.

I bought my seeds and gum and left the store without much further thought about it.

WTF?

that, my friend is called progress... you're no longer a dipper and you're starting to think like that. congrats!

The same shit happened to me on my 3rd day. And it was tough one. I walked in to the BP on the way to work, and this store always came through on the 2 cans for 5.85. I would usually by the whole box. Better deal than a log. Anyway the walk to counter was tough because I saw them when I walked in the door. Got the counter and the guy went for the skoal. I had to stop him and let him know I would no longer be buying any. Felt real good to say it out loud for the 1st time.

SWEEEEEEEET!

Every trigger that you beat - makes you stronger 'Remshot'

Thanks guys!!!!!!!

I think the fog is starting to lift. I can actually concentrate for more than a few seconds. What a difference a day makes.

I FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!


Semper Fi.

Today was a good day........

Thanks everyone.

Quitter for life....

BOOOOOOOOYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Another good day....

Craving seeds more than dip.....Go figure.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Woke up this morning and my first thought was of breakfast.......We all know what my first waking thought used to be. Not to say that the thought didn't come soon after. I will not dip today!

I see a lot of guests on the site daily.

To all guests:

What the fuck are you waiting for. I mean really. If you're here, you obviously want to quit. Let me help.

TAKE THE SHIT OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.....RIGHT NOW !!!!!!!!!

LET ME KNOW WHEN YOUR DONE.........

K. Waiting ..........

ALL RIGHT. NOW DESTROY YOUR STASH.......YES......ALL OF IT. (No safety can/dip.)

NOW post roll call giving your word not to dip today. Then do it again tomorrow just like the rest of us.

ONE day at a time. It Can Be Done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALL is well. I'm still getting the urge once in awhile. Normally during my trigger times. But they are less frequent as of late. it is still a day to day battle. But I'm winning.


Still see some guest lurkers wondering if they can quit.

Answer: Hell yes you can. Climb on in.

BOOOOOOOOOYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Things are better than well so far......

And for you lurkers, time is running out to join the craziest most degenerate fucking quitters I have ever seen....................................


Go May group................................

Monkey fuckin, ball squeezin, broke back mountain lovin, maysterybatin, chicken chokin, non dippin fuckers of all time.

Join now or die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is all.





Was that a little over the top.....

No Boss comparisons please

Damn it! I was hopin nobody would find out about the broke back mtn shit! Secret's out.

Just a little recap for those following along and reading this for the first time (Guests).

Day 35. Hit the fog today. Bad. Just like on day 6. Iritable, pist, don't give a shit, want to jump out of my skin type of shit. Hit me first thing this morning.

The good news:

I posted on the site that I was "nuttin" up a little, not exactly asking for anything or help, just stating that I was a little twitchy.

Well, well ,well. The responses came rolling in. Very encouraging and very helpfull. Just what I needed to hear.

It worked......I'm still twitchy, just a little calmer about it.

Well done support, well done.


My point by documenting this here is to help those thinking of quiting.

Not too many of us on this site thought they could ever quit for an hour, let alone a day.

It's not all fun and games and this certainly is not easy. But for the last several weeks (with the exception of today) I have felt great. The responses gave me the information that this is very temporary and I will be feeling great again in no time. I have no doubt of this. I just needed to hear it.

So, all you lurkers (Guests), stop fucking around and quit. Now is a good time.

Today is a good day!

Today is great day to quit. Yes, it is a scary prospect. Even thinking about quitting makes you anxious.

It will be hard at first but it will get better.

Today is a great day to quit.

I feel great today. Here's me feeling great one day at a time.

Day 50 came and things were well for the most part. then night came around and the nic bitch was whisperin to me.....

Got into chat and things turned out okay. There was an exception to the helpage but I have since gotten over it. Remained quit. All is well.

July group started up several days ago and only one new quitter, maybe two, is signing roll.

That's too bad. Good for him (Well done Daniel) bad for everyone else that has not made the decision to quit.


Now is a good day to quit!

congrats on 50

I looked in the mirror. It was confirmed. I had some shit in my teeth. I don't remember caving. I don't remember buying a can. I panicked. There is no way in hell I caved. Then I thought, this may be a dream. I hoped it was a dream.

I woke up in a panick. Damn, that was a harsh dream and way too fucking real. Then I found the can. It was open. I looked inside and there was a big old fatty missing. Oh shit, it's true. I fucking caved. I felt shame and horror at letting everyone down. How the hell can I get back on this site and tell everyone I caved after everything we had gone through. I thought I may not go back at all. How could I. I thought maybe I would just go back to dipping. That thought was very depressing. I was one stressed out mother fucker.

Then I woke up. You can not imagine my relief to find that it was all a dream. A double mind fuck dream, but none the less, still a dream. It was very vivid. Upon waking I remember it all. I seriously wish I could remember the hot dreams that vividly.

I have read about others having these dip dreams. I had not had mine yet and thought maybe I was not going to. oooops.

It just goes to prove that they have mapped your quit out pretty well on this site. They have let you know what to expect. Everything that I was told I would experience has happened.

Ready - Day 80 - Just the start.

Now is a good day to quit. Get off the fucking fence, take the shit out of your lip, throw away your stash and sign roll.

You can do this.

I was cruisin the site, playin some poker and all of a sudden.....Wham!.

A very intense craving out of nowhere. It only lasted a few moments but it was memorable. I have had these mini intense craves several times a day. It normally happens when I'm not thinking about it and things are going well. Then a few triggers form up and attack all at once. I place my tonque in my lip and wonder why the hell I don't have a dip in, thinkin I should do somethin about that. It's like I never quit. Mind you, it is only for a very brief moment, but that scares me a little.

I have to admit it, I really enjoyed dipping. RIGHT AFTER making the previous statement, I realized that I had not enjoyed dipping for many many years. As a matter of fact, for the last several years I actually did not like it at all.

YOU SEE how she works. She wispered about the good old days. Knowing that it was the time I most enjoyed. She made me conveniently forget how fucking miserable dipping has been for many years.

She is a crafty one. I must give her credit. But I give everyone on this site a whole hell of a lot more credit for sayin, "Fuck You NIC Bitch"

All is well. Again, I would not be dip free if it were not for this site. That I have no doubt of.

I keep writing in here hoping that it will help one person, just one, decide to quit. It is the very least I can do.

I hear you my friend - I get the random craves as well. This site is the only reason I have not caved.

I also had a dip dream a couple nights ago. I was locked up in some room, one of the few remaining people on earth, and all around me were cans and cans of dip. I woke up just before I was about to stick a fatty in. I can't even dip in my dream! 'bang head'

Dip dreams are scary indeed, but think of it this way. You are healing. You are winning. Your addiction realizes this and knows you are serious. It has tried everything with you by now...the just one lie...the you can quit anytime lie...sudden panic attacks....massive craves, etc. Yet, despite its best attempts, you don't budge.

Now...the only way to fuck with you is subconsciously, in your sleep. Keep fighting the good fight and in time, the dreams will stop too.

It is 05/01/08, 324 PST. I see 15 guests checking out this site and three of them are registering.

What you are unable to see until you register, is the quit groups. Upon registering , you will be assigned a quit group. These groups have tremendous pride and they are EXTREMELY effective in helping you stay quit. It is difficult to explain to anyone who is not apart of one of these groups. It works. It can work for you. But, YOU must decide to quit. You will be required to do the heavy lifting. And when those times come that made you cave in the past, that is where this site comes into play.

This is powerful stuff in here. There really is no reason not to quit. If I can do it. You can.

We really do understand what you are going through.

QUIT RIGHT NOW. And get on the inside.

Ready - 100 days quit.

I am no different than any of you. The thought of quitting was a very scary prospect. I wanted to quit for many years, just like you. After five minutes of being on this site, I knew things would be different. I threw out my dip and held on to my ass. I knew it was going to be horrible. It was, for the first few days. After the first few days, there were speed bumps here and there.

The reason I did not cave, was the people on this site. It is difficult to explain, but it works. You are just going to have to accept my word on that for now. When you join up with this fine bunch of men and women, you will have your proof. I suspect that accountability and pride have something to do with it. They are both very powerfull and can be found in abundance on this site.

Things are getting better. Things are getting better all the time. I truly wish I had quit many many years ago. But like you, I said I would quit tomorrow. Tomorrow turned into next week. Next week turned into next month. You get the picture. I know how you think, I have been there. There are many people on this site. They all know exactly what you are going through. That makes them experts at helping you.

I am no different than you. I was unable to quit on my own. If you are reading this, you are not alone. There, now you do not have any more excuses.

Life is so much better without dip. That is a fact.

You can do this.

We can help.

I do not have the words to properly express my gratitude to everyone on this site. Thank you just doesn't seem to be enough. Just know that you have helped me. If not for you, I would not be quit. I started writing this in the introduction section and it turned into my HOF speech.

Thank You,

Dave.

Everyone have a safe and enjoyable Memorial Day.

Freedom is not, nor has it ever been, free. For all of you who have and are serving this great country of mine, Thank You.

Duty, Honor, Country, Pride, Sacrifice. These are not just words to me. These are not just words to millions of my fellow Americans.

God bless The United States of America and my beloved United States Marine Corp.

Semper Fi! Devil Dogs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rM_tDB8OZok&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLuaGRoxO9k&feature=related

P.S. Larry Mills, it was an honor to serve with you. I hope you and your family are well.

Ready - 131 Days quit.

I have not thought about putting a dip in my mouth in over a week. I have not had a funk in over a month. I have not felt this good, for this long, in a very long time.

Don't get me wrong, I am not curred. That's not my point. My point is, I feel fucking fantastic. My mouth is recovering like I never thought it would.

It took me alot to get here. It got easier and easier as the days have gone by. Without this site and the fine fucking quitters here, I would not be quit.

You can do it. We can help. Now reach deep down inside and take the fucking plunge. Throw your fucking can away and sign up.

You tell em Ready sent ya. On second thought, that's probably not such a great idea. Unless you want to catch shit right out the gate.

Semper Fi.

That's what I'm talking about brother! Keep doin what you do. You have helped a lot of people. I still remember one particular day when you saved my ass, I had decided to say "Fuck it" and go pick up a can, but saw your PM and stuck it out. I owe you my quit!

And I owe many people here my quit. We are all in the same life boat. When one of us is not capable of paddling, someone stronger always steps up until you can paddle again.

I am glad to see that you are still doing well. I have seen you pay it forward and that makes it all worth it. Well done my friend, well done.

Ready - 135 Days quit and just a little pissed off.

Come on over here and sit down my friend, lets have a little talk. Yes you. The Guest that is browsing the site. I know you want to quit and you are looking for the inspiration to do it. Well my friend, you have come to the right place. You will most likely find everything you need right here on this site to quit and stay that way. BUT, There is a catch.

When you sign up and post roll, you are giving your WORD of HONOR that you will not dip for that day. That's all we ask. That you give your word and keep it. It is a very simple concept. Pride, Honor, Integrity. These words mean something here.

When you are taken under the wing of a quitter, a group and the site, We expect you to live up to your word. When you do not, it affects all of us. Especially the other quitters who have gotten close to you. All of us have been betrayed and we all know how it feels. It's a big fuck you right to the face.

Having said all of that, DON'T come in here and try us on like a fucking shirt. Have the respect for others not to just "Give it a try".

We are some serious fucking quitters here. This is not a game to us. Have the respect to be sincere and you will find a tremendous amount of support here.

Done rambling.

P.S. I would like to find all of those people I invested time with, who caved after one fucking day, and poke them in the eye with a stick. Does that seem harsh? never mind, I'm just a little pissed.

Very Well Said Sir.


'clap'

Well said, my man...well said!

'clap' Bravo Bravo Bravo.'clap' You hit the nail right smack on the head. I have that perfect stick for you to use if needed.

Link Courtesy of Brent. I defy you not to feel just a bit better afterwords.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RntL-2uwt_g

Life is good. Don't piss it away bein a crabby ass. Now get out there and start livin.

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A blast from the past. Don't worry. I got straightend out by several people on this site. This was at day 75.